i was looking and browsing tru my pc and found this file. Its a thing that i use to help diding with.. it seems that every time she wants to compose something, she would ask me to do it for her. hehehe. so enjoy the story. HOW I END UP BEING HERE ( My little success story) Ssssssss staring at my keyboard trying to felicitate my success story, Hmm…my mind goes numb and I guess this is what they say a writer’s block. There is so much to say and yet, not even a single word appears inside my mind , how am I suppose to write how I felt, let alone to put it down on papers. Many things rushes through my mind when I think , how did I get to this place. The people that encourage me, the people that supported me but most of all the people that makes a great difference in my life that made me who I am today. Confucius once said “ A journey of a thousand miles began with a single step”. That’s a strong word to carry but was what my ex branch Manager Mr. Sen Hung Keong meant when he told me “ Amylyn if you want to have a better career in Maybank, you must be in the sales line”. At that time the only thing comes to my mind is Why meeeeeeeee…. Lord is this a penalty of something I did or didn’t do before life, but then, with an endless guidance and support, working day and night trying to understand the business then one day I woke up and discover within me my Dot. I discover that everything begins with a single dot , because if we do not change , we can become Extinct and when we move beyond our fear, then we are free. Sometimes the simplest phone call could make a great difference in our career, so just pick up the phone. The 19 years of my tenure with MAYBANK, there was never a day that I felt I was in a wrong place. At times I felt beaten up but I just pick myself up and tell myself “ every sacrifice has it price”. What motivates me the most is how the management and colleagues supported me endlessly because never have I felt my years with MAYBANK hallow. My presence meant a great deal and what I say and do matters. Purely what ever happens in my life and my career is because I got a very strong support system from my colleges and my family. My rock is my family who have supported me along the way, but things wouldn’t be so kind and great without the blessing of the almighty GOD. My greatest satisfaction in my work is purely to help people in their financial circumstances and knowing that they achieve something financially puts up a great smile on my face and the rewards ain’t bad too ( smile).

NEW UPDATE

its been ages since i update this blog. i'm too involve with facebook that i nearly forgotted that i got another baby to look besides my dog. Just that u need time and energy to write but u only need a word to update ur facebook and see if there is any comments.

at least with the facebook , u got an instance comment and sometimes facebook can make a lot of haywire things in our lives. its different when we are blogging coz the art of blogging is like writting and telling ur little story to everyone or noone accept urself.

I was never a writter, but i am a great philospher ( my sister said to me , that when u have less, then u become a philisopher coz u see things more when u got less). i guess its right but for me ( dululah) the greatest things about writting is sharing my experience and sharing positive things that i gain from other people, hoping that other poeple will somehow get a benefit from it ( even its a micro benefit but still its a benefit right).Then its the sharing of information and sharing of thoughts between me , my readers ( if i got any left) and my siblings, coz my sister use to ask me to update my blog proptly but i just doenst have the time to do it.

I guess one of the reason , im not blogging as well is when Oprah put a finale in her show. There is nothing to discuss, nothing to ponder and most of all there is nothing to look forward to once u get home. OHHHHHHH OPRAH I MISS YOU. BUT HEY I Got this one channel ( my niece told me about it) its www.1channel.ch . i think this is the greatest finding one could ever had, coz i rarely see tv i just log in to this site and see every movie i want, every talkshow i want ( oprah classroom channel) and so many other things, so thank you Inday and thank you grace to introducing the channel to me. NOW MY LIFE IS FILLED AGAIN HEHEHE.

Last night i saw the oprah whinfrey story on telling the truth and releasing oneself from our little secret so that we could be free .... hmmmm what do u think.. i think its good but the horror ......... no doubt everyone of us got our little secret, that we kept of our friends, our family members even with friends working with us. but what if we tell everything we have so that the secret wouldnt be a secret anymore and we release ourself from the lies that we kept all this years. Wouldnt that be liberating, think about it, and i sure am going to think hard about it too.

THERE IS SO MUCH TO BE THANKFUL FOR.

THE year 2011 just passed and looking at it.. there is so much to be thankful for.. its up to us to make the change.

here are the things that i,m thankful off:-
1. I'm thankful for the time of togetherness with my family . This is the first time ever that we are together accept for Aishah.
2. I'm thankful that god gave me a year to be with my family that i love so very much.
3. I'm thankful that my relationship with my sister has improved this year ( i'm smilling right now)
4. I'm thankful that my family had a wonderful health this year.
5. I'm thankful that moved in to my wonderful house and meet a lot of good friends along the way.
6. I'm thankful that my career has been well last year and there is alot of changes happening at my work place ( positive things)
7. I'm thankful to see the smile on my mother's face when she saw the whole family gets together smilling during christmas this year.

i will keep on adding things that i'm thankful from time to time..

"Thankful"


Somedays we forget
To look around us
Somedays we can't see
The joy that surrounds us
So caught up inside ourselves
We take when we should give.

So for tonight we pray for
What we know can be.
And on this day we hope for
What we still can't see.
It's up to us to be the change
And even though we all can still do more
There's so much to be thankful for.

Look beyond ourselves
There's so much sorrow
It's way too late to say
I'll cry tomorrow
Each of us must find our truth
It's so long overdue

So for tonight we pray for
What we know can be
And every day we hope for
What we still can't see
It's up to us to be the change
And even though we all can still do more
There's so much to be thankful for.

Even with our differences
There is a place we're all connected
Each of us can find each other's light

So for tonight we pray for
What we know can be
And on this day we hope for
What we still can't see
It's up to us to be the change
And even though this world needs so much more

There's so much to be thankful for

Would it be kind.

A few weeks ago something happen between me and a good friend of mine. She was about to go back to Bintulu after 4 years of study leave( u know who i meant right), but towards the very last week, we ( its was not we, coz i was not angry) she got so angry with me for one particular reason.

If you are reading this.. honestly i have nothing against u. I never devide my friends into categories .. all my friends are good freinds and i love all of you dearly. But i think we should support friends in times of trouble and i think she need us at this juncture coz she is having a hard time dealing with her divorce and the lost of her career. I was there for you when you need in lying down in the hospital feeling so helpless, not shutting my eyes even a minute coz i know u need me the most and yet you have the guts to say i never supported you all this while.

What crumbles me most of all is how everyone treat as if i'm the bad person ,when in fact the only thing i did was wanting nobody to be left out. nobody to be left behind. What would u feel if someday , you are in a bad situation and everyone ditch you behind.

Maybe i would sound so arrogant or selfish for not going with all of you during the weekend but i believe at least she is not left behind alone.. at least im left behind too and she wouldnt feel so bad. Don't get me back to the time how everyone cheats me and stab me from behind and you were one of the culprits, how hurtful i felt after all the years i've invested in our friendship. You told me you did it because you didnt want to take sides but u did.. at least this time round i didnt take anyone side, i didnt take yours and i didnt take L's side either.

I hope you would understand me. I care and love all my dearest friends and hurting each one of you means its hurts me as well but i have to take my stand .. nobody should be left behind. NOBODY SHOULD BE LEFT ALONE. Another friend of mine explain that , she have the right to choose who she wants to bring coz its her apartment and her weekend but is it to the expense of leaving another friend behind. What if that person is you........ what if the person that was left behind is you.. wouldnt you feel hurt.. OOHhhhhhhhhh never mind we wouldnt tell her.. if she doesnt know wouldnt hurt her.. what if she knewwwwwwwwww.

Think about it... what if someday the one left behind is you..

Two house for a house.

Sometimes i wonder, what are we aiming for in life.. a good life.. a big house.. a nice car or even as many children as possible.

Then it get me thinking.. im paying almost a thousand plus for my house for a long period of time and it strikes me.. how much am i paying until i can call the house my own. Then i start calculating and OMG im going to pay almost double what i loan for the house.

Even with the Government load, i still paying double the amount,, ... and it prolong as long as i live. , What if i die early.. then the house will be paid in full and the person benefited will own a fully paid house., but as long as im living , i am liable to pay for my house hehehe.

Have you ever think about it.. how our lives tangled with all these depts. ahhhhhhhh.. how can we stop this feeling. No debts .. means no house, no car .. no nothing.. well not entirely nothing but no higher puchase asets.

How can i add to my income , so that i can be free from all of this........... think allan think.

They are getting younger by the day. ( needles and pin)

I was checking my students ( PITO) class today and one of them put their ic no in front of the report and my god these students are born in 1985 hehe. wow i was 17 at that time . i was doing my spm when these teachers are born and now luckly im teaching them.

Now i feel like an old haggggggg.. hehehe but to my surprise ,.. they look alot older than me ( aduh perasan la ni).

I guess the riddles is soooooo right when it says " needles and pins , needles and pins, when a mans married, his trouble begins.

My rocky world...

I just got news today that my name was mentioned during the graduate school meeting last week, i was one of the students that didn't activity partake in my studies. I admit that recently i am really really off tract especially with my work ( my pile up work), my residence ( how troubled it has been lately) and then my studies ( how i am procrastinating my studies , just because I'm paying myself).

I felt that life is taking so much of me. This doesn't include my personal problems that I'm dealing with.. another comes another problem one after another. GODDDDDDD HELP ME. Everyday I'm praying for strength and wisdom, hoping that god would look upon me and guide me to a better me. Sometimes i felt waking up in the morning without any clear view of what i want in life. Have u ever felt hopeless and that your life has no meaning at all. Waking up in the morning asking yourself what is your purpose in life and what can you bring to make the world a better place, when everything crumbles.

I need to slap myself in the face and shake me up.. Allannnnnnnnn.. wake up !!!!!!!!wake up. !!!!!!!!!!!! pull yourself together. Compare your life with other people , you are farrrrrr better. so suck up and do nottttttt i repeat do not do this to yourself again. Be brave and pray for God's mercy everyday.

So, as i am writting this now,.. i will pull myself up and do the best that i can. No more procastinating and no more aliby. NO NO NO. no more .