Did you manage to see Oprah last night. Its actually a rerun from the previous season but as usual its Oprah and one never goes tired watching. Anyway its all about Mid age crisis and how one deals with it.
Middle age begins at 40 ( kira betullah jugak when they said Life begins at 40). Some people believe that at the age of 40 your life comes full circle and at first i wasn't taken by the thoughts but then when i pull 40 last year , i began to notice that my life does goes full circle.
The Jews believe that as when we reach adolescence( for girls it when they reach the age of 16 and for guys it started a little bit late ( 21 to be axact heeh sebab kaum lelaki ni lambat matang ). Anyway after that age you life soon to change and you embraces a new persona for the world ahead. Thats is the age where you become rebelious, uncertain and trying to find yourself ( no wonder i sucks when i first belajar kat upm... everybody seems to hate me, coz i was this very bitter person and looking at it sometimes i wonder why Andy , Salya, Cornel and some of my dearest freinds likes me, but as times goes by and soon we realize how different we are from that person. I guess in my case, i was awaken by the thoughts that my freinds around me started turning to be the people that i hated and finally i realize that they actually became me, and it scares me.
My way of reacting and thinking ( i guess being fierce, rude , evil and Devil seems to be the exit before people critisizes me and hurt me). Once my mum ever told me to be gentle and soft ( which i felt redicolous) because she was the one that told me when i was a toldler to stand out for my own and to be fierce. Her thoughts somehow sticks to my head and now i realise what she meant. After 40 years old of living in this world i realize what my mum is trying to said, and now it open a whole new world for me.
My friends are closer to me, I become more calmer in doing my work and obtain great tolerence towards other people. I felt as if my life is richer now ( not in terms of money .. well i hope God grace me with that too) but in terms of grace. Life is not a battle for me anymore, i see life as a new beggining to me and i can't wait to wake up again tommorow morning to face another day.
P.S. Recently i found out that you can attract people by just being you, honest, gracious, fun, loving but most of all accepting ( this i learn the hard way , coz now i learn to accept people for what they are rather than what i want them to be). I learn that giving people a sincere smile and gratitude makes a whole lot different in the people around you. So.. everytime you see a person today give them a big smile and don't hold you smile back just give then the biggest smile you can find and see how they react to it ( anyway its a good exercise for your face too)
AMENNNNN...........
