Pesta kaamatan and Garu Guru Gerai Nyamai...Happy Gawai

Its Harvest festival again.. and tommorow is a holiday to us here in Sarawak and Sabah.YAHOOO.... I want to wish all my Kadazandusun and Gawai dayak friends "Happy Kaamatan dan Happy Gawai" Singarung kio and Ngiruppppppppppp dek ............ Apoo... Special wish to Andy Toda and Family and Carlina Freddie and family

Joke of the day.

A DAY IN A FAMILY....

Dad: Son... you go to kedai .. buy me sofdrink?
Anak: Ok... emmm.... Cok or pepsi?
Dad: Cok
Anak: Diet or regular?
Dad : Regular
Anak: Bottle or tin?
Dad: Botol
Anak: 1 liter or 8 oz?
Dad: Sial .. cilaka..grrrr grrrrrrrr water jelah ..(face burning red)
Anak: Natural or mineral?
Dad: Mineral
Anak: cold or hot little - little ?
Dad: You want penyapu ... i hit you nanti ......
Anak: Penyapu........ lidi ka or kayu?
Dad: Binatang!!!!!!! animal... hurry uplah.
Anak: Pig or cow...???

Values and Taboos

Apa nak jadi dengan anak bangsa kita ni. I remember when i was a kid even the words pen_s and V_lV_ is taboo. Spelling or even pronoucing the words are commiting a sin, differs from kids nowadays.. words like these are normal vocabulary for them.

Does that means that the new generation are better or far worst than the partially the old generation. Do you think that we as parents, should go back to our traditional teaching? or should sex education be again taken as taboo.

I believe that the evolution of parents from being traditonal to be modern gives an impact to the new generation. Instilling some old and traditional values is essential to make a person as a whole, but not all traditional values are acceptable nowadays but let us not deny that its is essential to at least embrace some of it.

more info click below:

http://www.hmetro.com.my/Current_News/HM/Friday/BeritaUtama/20070525095251/Article/indexm_html

Kenangan terindah 2

These are newly scanned old pictures :

I remember this pic was taken a day after my convocation, Me and the rest of my coursemate went all over campus to take pictures. We finished 6 rolls of film ( yelah masa tu tak ada digital camerakan) tapi funny coz the pictures are all beautiful. I guess thats what the say the Kodak moment kan.

This picture was taken in front of UPM Library after the whole class took our final year picture. All of us feel like on cloud nine at that time sebab dah nak graduate kan, but still the future lies uncertain for all of us.

Why this happen 2

this is another email from the same student. It kinda funny but humiliating for us because this is our product.

It is so difficult for me to use formal English, I just know ROJAK English! But no choice, now not practice when I still got the chance? Already wan go out work but then seems know nothing! I really no confident to work outside! That's also the reason why I choose back to MARDI or something I had done it before! He..he…

Holiday? I never think I got holiday? My holiday the most also just 1 day, if rest too much I'll be lazy like now! Actually now I do not apply any job yet, just flip the newspaper everyday without taking any action, not even my resume prepared! Because many of my friends at UPMKB said want come to me and if I got the job I sure cant bring the travel around so I choose not to search job first before they all back.

But there are some agencies in my mind already which I want apply like MARDI, Department of Agriculture and also UPMKB. Just that I don't know which to choose, because I know everything also got its advantages and disadvantages; I'm too greedy, just wan the advantages and cant accept the disadvantages, so this make me difficult to choose!

Ok, I think is not good also I waste your time, because I really can type till an assay if want to tell everything in my mind! I do feel sorry to disturb you!

So is that means I can join department of agriculture if I had quite from MARDI, for example? Just that I cannot join back MARDI right? Or my name will be black listed in all government sectors?

I really got the heart want to works at government, maybe after I had tried for private company because I think that might it be too fast I fasten myself with government sector? Because in my mind, if you works in government sector, you cant get in touch with many people (is my concept wrong). For example, if I work in private sector, I can change the job after few years work at the company; even I can try out the new area of work then can know different people in different area.

I also know the government sector got lots of benefit, even my brother also ask me go apply government jobs. The reason why I like government sector is as the case of Mr Allan, I don't like much $, I just want a secured life! Government sector can provide this, I don't like to work in pressure condition, im so lazy, just want easy life. He…….he………..

I prefer private not because of the salary but the chance to meet different people is bigger (my personal concept),I know everything is not easy, I never said anythings is easy except I had done it!

I don't want send many application (as what you told me as many application as possible to anywhere) because I scare that how if I get the job successfully and yet I got none knowledge of what the job is how am I going to handle that? Again the same thing (I got no confident).

Actually, I know apply MARDI also wont said that i'm d one who sure will get the post but I'll try this is I want to, because at least I did my practical there before. I also know that I might send to other department or even not in Serdang but other branch of MARDI, but my concern is I did my practical at MARDI Serdang before I know little about MARDI, with this point I got confident to try it out.

I never look down on the research assistant post before, in my mind just that I want faster get a job (not mean that I want to earn so many $, then become so rich), then pay my ptptn debt, have a very very extremely simple life ( I don't like luxury life; luxury lifestyle wont guarantee happy), I prefer hard works because it will healthier and happier. Maybe my thinking is too childish now but this is what in my mind now and I cant guarantee you how my thinking will be in the next second but this is what I think now.

I also never hope to climb to the top, I like to be in small position; the bigger post you are the higher pressure you will be in the unhappy you are! I also scare I cant handle if you give me high post!

I know you experience a lot before, you do share with us during the finishing school program.

Another reason why I don't want apply many is Im worried how I wan to reject people if they offered me the job, I don't know how to say no without annoying others.

You know why no matter how I also do not scare? Because I know no matter how worst I am outside I'll sure get a job, just that need extreme hard work (work at my dad coffee shop) that's the reason why I do not worried I got no job! He……….he………

Budak ni memang manja betul lah! Ha .ha..........but honesty its really really so difficult the life is but what good is you receive cash! My grandfather and father wake up 4am and works for so many years already! This also part of the reason why at first I keep on saying I want go back make coffee, because since very young I already heard their words saying how fortunate you all is, people send in $ to you all, you all also don't want go to receive it! And I do feel so sad always heard my grandfather complaining that he works till so tired and he got to do alot of works. We as his grandchild also cannot reduce his works really so sad! He is 80 years old already and he is so sad if the shop got to close up, the same things for my father. Although now my elder brother is helping them at shop, but shop really need more experts instead of just a worker.

Since young I already work at shop, during semester break I never search job outside, just help at shop (just nice to listen help at shop, actually is lazy don't want go find job outside. He…he…). Actually just the coffee shop also very long story already, continue next time, ok? Because tomorrow still need to wake up early (before 7am) to help at shop!

Finally I would like to say thanks again to you. I really feel so thankful you can spend a lot of time on me, hope I will not disappointed you.

Why this happen..

I know this is very humiliating for us UPMers but i felt that this is an important topic, i got an email from illa from her student a while back. Her ex student (Graduated from Bachelor Science Bioindustry) send her an email almost everyday expressing her interest on taking the world by storm. Gosh!!! you should read this and see what you think..


Is it? Try tell me more about your research see weather I can help? Who know maybe I know somebody can introduce to you to get the geran? I dare promise but my younger brother is now selling his credit cards membership while waiting to enter university results. maybe I can told him your research and ask him try see weather got any bank interest in that? But I dare promise you because im not that closed with him, we always argue and I scare he will not help me but no harm to try.

How good if my mum think like you? She just keep asking me go for works, maybe she know me better also. He….he………because she said "the longer you are at house the lazier you are at home and you are not the type of person can works at shop; the work at shop is too much and too hard for you, I prefer you work outside! Everytimes you said you want work at shop just because you not yet handle all the task on your own and you don't know how hard the work is once you handle all, so you keep saying you want work at shop." Now I really realize her words, because she had gone to s'pore from 24-28/5, though im not handle over all her works but already can see how much her works is at home, at shop! without her, lunch also did not cook rice because no time and dad also not free. I don't know how to cook meal, im not my sister. He………he…………

That's why when mum was here she keep mumble, you ar………..you ar…….everything also don't want learnt everything also don't want did, just waiting me and wherever also I cant go because you all cannot handle my task; I want go anywhere also got to settle all the things for you all first before I can go!

Here I would like to show you the advertisement that I plan to apply from MARDI webpage. What is the meaning of Gred Q27? And how is the salary being categorised? For example, what is the salary for P1T2 and P2T2………? If I wan apply this job is it I just need to use my STPM certificate to apply only? If I apply this job, what is my salary will be?

So that wraps us the email to Fazila, what do u think guys. Is this a letter from a person that holds a degree.

UPMKB Taman Pertanian Family Day

The last family day Taman Pertanian did was on the year 2003 and by this time a lot of the old staff had already left eg. Abang Nazeri, Donna ( converted to tutor), Politi , Amir and many more, then comes the new staff but some of us, the old timer still remains. The main reason its done is to make the staff grew closer together in order for us to work with each other better and this is one way to break the ice between us.

If my memories get me right, the pengarah program last time was also Carlina, and me and Dr Joseph got to share our birthdays together. So this time around Carlina still remains as the pengarah program assisted by some of the staff. The programme went well as scheduled that was on the 26 May 2007 at 7.30 am kununlah. tapi pengarah pun lambat sampai .. sudeh

Banyaklah jugak games dan aktiviti yang dirancang cthnya :
a) Tiup belon ( kategori kanak-kanak)
b) Makan epal (staf )
c) Cari syilling dalam tepung.
d) Ikat kaki (3 legged race)
and many more.
tapi yang paling bestnye we have endless supply of food ( gemuk lagilah aku ni)




He he tengok ini.. punyalah besar mulut aku nak makan epal tu. Carlina and Edwin disqualified sebab Edwin termakan termakan epal si Carlina. Oh btw i got 2nd place on makan epal. Tips for this race.. always go ketepi barisan so that the tali tak goyang banyak, sebab when you are in the middle the tali lagi banyak goyang susah nak makan epal tu and you gotta buka mulut luas-luas and ngap. ....matilah Ning Baizura boleh telan epal sekali arung je.

Oh, btw that was illa and Veron tengah masak bbq. Veron is our ex secretary in TPU, Illa ni pantang kalau ada makan mesti ada je muka dia .. she could smell the food a kilometer away snif snif ...btw i invited her. Kalau tidak dijemput nanti sentap lagi pengsan aku.

The is one of the children game , tiup belon sampai pecah.. tengok tu satu budak tu nangis sebab pengerusi lambat bagi isyarat. Lepas tu yang suaiiii lagi tak cukup belon .. anak si Nalong si Carl allan (kombinasi nama aku dengan carlina hehee) tidak dapat belon tapi then lepas tu baru dapat. Tapi yang paling best anak Abdul Rahman bolot semua game.(good pedigree)

This is time masa 3 legged race. Me and Carlina berpasang. Mula tu i was selected to go with Fazila... Makkkkkkk takut lariiiiiii.. then i change to Carlina pulak, tapi tetap tak menang kan. Baju sama pulak tu.

The family day is nice and entertaining. Lots of laughter and food. Did i mention that i celebrated my birthday (belated) with 6 other staff and thier kids that day. Masa tunggu staf kemas we have a cit-cat with Dr Rajan and we were talking about palm reading and it seems that Dr Rajan knew something about it and ended up everybody show thier palms to him. I remember Dr Rajan said that my palm shows that i am a strong willed person , sebab my heart line goes straight to my middle finger.

We finally parted at around 2 pm , kenyang dan penat.

Allan lajot melaporkan dari Taman Pertanian channel 71.

BIG GULP (Selera Kampung)

Gosh rajin pulak aku hari ni, with this i had 4 entries for today already. Cekap betul aku kan.

Oh btw i just want to make an entry on "the mulut kecil suap besar" i mentioned earlier.

Actually after the cuepec's perjumpaan ,illa called me up for kudap kudapan in Selera Kampung. I invited Jep and packed that i will pick me up at ICT.

So masa kat ICT , i meet Yoshi and Juriah and geng. End up all of us pulak setuju to go to selera kg to eat. Me and Jep sampai dulu so i ordered Tea C special with nasi goreng kampung. Jep had Tea C special jugak , he said that he still got balance food from last night so dia cakap tak nak makanlah.

Then after a few minutes si illa pun sampai yang and she ordered Telur Bistik , Milo ais and nasi kosong. Soon after that Yoshi and the other 2 girl also arrive and they ordered thier food as well. After a while my food datanglah so "Ok guys i eat first okay"

After that the people yang comes before illa dah makan, The waitress cakap illa's food "Under way" hehe . Mula tu illa ok lagi , not pissed of of the situation and she inform the waitress to be quick sebab dah lapar dah ni dik.

The comes Ju's food and still illa's punya food tak sampai-sampai jugak and soon after that the person that comes a little bit later pun started eating. If you were with us at that time ...fuh the way Illa's face looks "Wow Precious" jarang tau illa marah , kalau pasal kerja pun, tak pernah tengok dia marah macam tu.

Illa pun dah start marah dah. She called the waitress "Dik akak ni dari tadi dah order mana makanan tak sampai sampai lagi ni, akak marah tau ( ala ala yang ini i tambah perisa sikitlah). The waitress pun tak tau apa nak jawap and was so afraid looking at illa face and still her food didn't arrive . Kami dah start gelak gelak and illa told that kalau tak datang lagi kansel je dik. Biarlah akak kebuluran kat sini.

After a few minute, her food pun datanglah. Adus kesian aku tengok ila. She told me earlier that she was hungry sebab dari jam 2 petang tadi tak makan. what and now is only jam 5 lebih. Ad libitum betul illa ni. heheeh. Then after the food comes dia pun startlah makan. Terus senyap... Yoshi, Jep dah gelak gelak dah tengok telatah illa and by the time her food come i finish mine already.

So for a few second illa diam je, sebab according to her dia sedang menikmati hidangan. Nyum Nyum and funny because illa ni memang berkhemah kalau makan sebab she will chew her food slowly and took time to really taste the food but suapan dia really a big gulp. Berselera kau tengok if illa ni makan tau.

Soon after her food finish , then barulah you can see her smile. hehe ceria dah muka illa sebab petrol dah tambah kan, kalau tak mesti lampu ultraman dia bling bling je hehehe. Seronok jugak tengok illa makan kan and Jep and Yoshi agreed with me . After that we all parted and paid our own self. One good thing about us , is that everybody AMERICAN STYLE LAH KATAKAN. HEEHEH. bayar sendirilah. Tak ada sponsor-sponsor.

Kenangan Terindah

This segment is named "Kenangan Terindah" which i will try to bring and scanned back all the sweet memories pictures from the past.
So for this i bring you my pictures on the year 2000 (milinium). The year i made history
( I climbed Mount Kinabalu).

Gosh only god know how i felt this time. penat bagai nak rak....

Rupa pun macam lanun morro.

This is the highest peak (puncak) tapi pelik pulak they call it the lows peak

One of the greatest accomplishment in my life.

16 of us yang pergi ,only 7 of us made it.

Masa ini dah turun dah, kalau tak silap aku masa kat poring hot spring


This is dekat panalaban (Shelley dia)
this is around 5 pm (feeling penat but amaze with myself coz i made it halfway)

Gosh this is how i look like 7 years back. so differentkan.

CEUPEC COME TO UPMKB

Did you know that the president Cuepec Malaysia is from UPM. I never knew that. So a few days ago i got this email of an invitation:

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera,

Tuan/puan,

Sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa taklimat kenaikan gaji dan lanjutan tempoh persaraan kakitangan awam Malaysia oleh Presiden Cuepacs akan diadakan seperti berikut:

Tarikh : 24 Mei 2007 (Khamis)
Masa : 3:00 ~ 5:00 Petang
Tempat : Dewan Kuliah Utama, UPM Kampus Bintulu

Tuan/puan adalah dijemput untuk menghadiri taklimat ini.

Sekian, harap maklum dan terima kasih.

b.p. Ketua Pentadbiran

Wah so at 3.00 pm daisy called me up to ask me if i'm going or not? and yang paling pelik illa pula called me asking me if i want to come for kudap kudapan ( pelik tul aku orang ni). Then i asked her " kau tidak datang perjumpaan cuepecs ke" boleh dia cakap " tak mo lah allan, lapar, lagipun live telecast daripada serdang" and it end up that the president for cuepecs datang all the way from KL for that (see rugi tak datang.... kalau tak...mesti statement menyesal aku allan keluar lagi)

But, surprisingly the dewan was full, Illa, Daisy, Mohammad ICT, Sudirman , Jap , Shahrul and yang peliknye penjawat jawatan kerajaan dari office seluruh Bintulu ni pun ada. Bila masa pulak diorang ni dijemput kan, in a way its good because terserlahlah kehebatang UPM sebab the president comes from UPM.

Then the president told about the story of how they manage to convince Pak Lah (aka the Prime Minister) to give us the raise. Do you know that that its has been nearly 10 years plus that government didn't do any revision on the salary for blue colour staff, and thu out the years the economy(up and down) plus the recession has hit the nation and still the salary is static. I remember the president cakap nak beli ikan tongkol pun mahal RM12.00 sekilo. He eloborated that with the increase cost of living forced the blue colour staff to live in a cramp inviroment taking extra and odd jobs just to make ends meet. Betul jugak because the lowest age for blue colour is around RM 500 and the higest is around RM 900 ini tak masuk graduateslah kan, so macam manalah they all nak concentrate kerja kalau by the end of the month baki pun tarak kan. hamboi tak sedar diri aku ni, pun sama jugak hehehe. ) Tapi memanglah betul i notice some my staff , lepas kerja je terus ambil kerja extra lagi, like extra bussiness and neglecting thier role as a parent and also by the time they come to work the next morning, they are too tired to work and perform.

Another interesting point that he mentioned is that the tempoh persaraan age with be lengthen to 60 years old from 56 to 60 as compared to other countries that is around 65. So its a good news for those people yang dah umur senja senja ni kan. ops. He also mentioned that they are fighting to ebolish the PTK system coz it doesnt bring justice to the warga emas sebab tau lah kalau dah senja ni otak pun kureng kan, sebab according to them they should based the kenaikan on service and not based on if you got cemerlang in PTK. So yang itu aku tak setujulah( hamboi sebab i dah lulus PTK 1 kan hehehe), sebab i think PTK is good sebab kenaikan tu cepat sikit and based on how hard you work. Kadang tu, this otai-otai too safe in thier confort zone that they are too selesa with thier keadaan sekarang and they dont want to move forward.

Tapi ada jugak betulnye , sebab when you are old , studies is the least of things on you to do list.

Banyak lagi intersting things yang he mentioned oh ya pasal elaun-elaun and kenaikan gaji askar dan polis sebanyak 20% (which is not important to me) hehe . Oh do u know that gaji askar dan polis baru je naik ini naik lagi. Hey guys marilah kita jadi askar dan polis pulak (kekar).

So secara amnya the Ceupec visit was good and everybody was happy, and i am happy that they did justice to the blue colour workers. He aslo mention that with the increase of salary ,he hoped that the blue colour worker will work harder and focus more on thier jobs better. Insyallah ha jangan blogging je. tak ada kerja ka. Gosh hobby bah ni.

Oklah, this is all for now. Allan Lajot melaporkan dari TV 71. hehe. nanti aku cerita funny thing happen after meeting with cuepec , makan kat selera kg. Pasal mulut kecil suap besar ops. so tunguuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu........

IDOL LOOK ALIKE

Did you saw American Idol last nite, Do you remember this yellow ostrict women that won one of the award last nite. Miss Margaret who ever her name is.

Margaret with Ryan Secreast siap cium lagi tu... eii geli aku.

This lady is so funny and could hardly walk sebab terlalu gemuk kan. But ceria sangat

menyerlah sangat... Loved her pot belly ....... sexy siullllllll

Now her face looks very familiar kan. Tapi siapa ya... hem.......

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Oh. tidak ... hehe is this her twin sister....

MAK.......... TOLONG..........LARIiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.....

Bukan diriku

My song choice for this week is "BUKAN DIRIKU" by Samson
btw its on my list of songs on tract no.31.
From time to time i will give pilihan lagu minggu ini lagi okay.
So for now enjoy the song.

BUKAN DIRIKU

Setelah kupahami

aku bukan yang terbaikYang ada di hatimu

Tak dapat kusangsikan

Ternyata dirinyalah

yang mengerti kamu

Bukanlah diriku..

Kini maafkanlah aku

Bila aku menjadi bisu

kepada dirimu

Bukan santunku terbungkam

Hanya hatiku berbatas

'tuk mengerti kamu

Maafkanlah aku..

Chorus :

Walau ku masih mencintaimu

Ku harus meninggalkanmu

Ku harus melupakanmu

Meski hatiku menyayangimu

Nurani membutuhkanmu

Ku harus merelakanmu

Dan hanyalah dirimu

Yang mampu memahamiku

Yang dapat mengerti aku

Ternyata dirinyalah

Yang sanggup menyanjungmu

Yang ramah menyentuhmu

Bukanlah diriku..

What does the month tells us...

I got an email yesterday from Jap on the person's character on the month you were born. I just want to share it with you. (is urs true.. mine is very very true lah)

---MAY BABY ---

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex.Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislikebeing at home. Restless. Not having many children.Hardworking. High spirited.

(this is me and its so true)

--JANUARY BABY--

Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored.Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth.Stubborn.

(inday and diding is here)

--FEBRUARY BABY --

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. S#*iest out of everyone.Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honestand loyal. Determined to reach goals. Lovesfreedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it.Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friendsbut rarely shows it. Ho ?ny. Daring and stubborn.Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

(this is my mum) hehehe.

---MARCH BABY ---

Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy andreserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generousand sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity.Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered.Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle upfeelings. Observant and assesses others

(This is my brother, aishah and shukri)

--APRIL BABY --

Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Doeswork well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to lookfor information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself andothers. Understanding. Fun to be around.Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure andtravelling. Systematic. hot but has brains.

---JUNE BABY --

You've got the best personality and are anabsolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirtand more than likely have an a very attractivepartner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likelythat you have a massive record collection. Youhave a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck,you've got the looks for it!!!

(andy and aaron is this you)

-----JULY BABY ----

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and tobe understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easilyconsoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.Easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitiveand forms impressions carefully. Caring andloving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges peoplethrough observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be with friends ... Always broodsabout the past and the old friends. Waits forfriends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurtbut takes long to recover.

---AUGUST BABY --

outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds onattention. no self control. kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "everything's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld orrestricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring. always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.independent. strong willed

---SEPTEMBER BABY --

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tendsto regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you havemany friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivatesoneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

--OCTOBER BABY --

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angryoften. Treats friends importantly. Brave andfearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt butrecovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest ANDsexiest of them all.

--NOVEMBER BABY ---

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate anddangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. S#xy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towardsyour inner and outer beauty and independentpersonality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless andindependent. Can hold their own. Stands out in acrowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, thegreatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

(This is where illa, daisy, my sister toto)

---DECEMBER BABY --

This straight-up means ur the most good-lookingperson possible... better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitivein everything. Active in games and interactions.Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced bykindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots ofideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someonealways on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. one guy/girl kind ofperson. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music. ]

Miri Weekend...

I guess this is too late for me to write but i just want to share a funny and relaxing weekend i had with my friends in Miri. Well actually i planned on going alone to rejuvenate myself but when i offer my friends to come along they all pun setuju jugak (pantang di ajak kan hehehe lariiiiiiii)

So tru came the journey, we woke up early and started the journey at around 10 am on Saturday. So Myself , Illa and Jap pun started the day early and go with my car (QTE 71). The journey turn out to be relaxing with us all singing Keju and singkong.

As we are about to reach Miri, Illa ajak makan lite lite sebab she made some snacks at home to eat on the way, turn out the snack was a big snack pulak.

A) A whole big tupperware of mee hoon.

B) Sandwiches

C) Banjo burger

D) Keropok

E) Air Kundur (Beli kat sing kong)

Gosh If this is what lite-lite what would dinner enstore for us kan. Punyalah sakit perut kekanyangan and after that we continue our journey to the Hotel.

We stayed kat Averly Hotel in Miri which cost us around 130++ per nite.(Gomen rate jangan marah) tulah kawan kawan kalau jalan tu selalulah bawa kad kerajaan berguna pulak kan. Our room is a double queen twin bed. (Very confortable) with the seaside view. Kalau tak nak sea view cost lesser about RM 8.00 ringgit. So apa lah ada sangat pada RM 8.00 kan. Yang bestnye our room also can view the pool so bolehlah menyubuk orang mandi kunun kunun, tapi ala ala bebudak je yang mandi kan. perluke. lariiii... michael jackson tastelah...

That nite we went to Thai bar.. (which ramai sangat lesbian) and then we went off the Cheries Bearies ( wow thats nice) and finally kepenatan menari baliklah kat bilik at arount 3 am.

Going to sleep is another battle coz taulah kalau illa dah berlayar memang susahlah nak tidur, dengan bunyi mengorok dia yang kuat siap bunyi macam tertelan katak ( kok kok kok )lagi so me and Jap pun cepat-cepat tidur sebelum illa keluar dari toilet , luckyly penat sangat and we manage to sleep before ila keluar dari toilet. Oh btw sebelum tidur illa sugest that we have breakfast at the hotel sebab dia cakap boleh makan banyak banyak.

The next morning we woke up and rush down to the lobby for breakfast ( yang penting illa p dulu ni, sebab takut habis). We end up eating for nearly 3 hours. Entah how many time we went for another bite. Tap tap habis makan pun dah nearly 11 am, so we went back to the room and rehat.

At the room all of us were giggling thinking of the amount of noise we made last nite ( snoringlah apa lagi macam beduk bersahutan ) then it pause to my mind mesti orang sebelah bilik tu ingat kita buat apa kat sebelah bilikkan. So basically mesti thought diorang as such:

Cina 1: Huh , this people next room very bising one kan last nite, very snoring like katak only.

Cina 2: ya lo, you know ha, 1 girl and 2 man you know.

Cina 1: Hai yo... maybe friends ma...

Cina 2: wei got the lady ya , is placurlah...

Cina 1 : Cheiiiii where got fat-fat lady placo..

Cina 2: Gotlah, cheap cheap lady ma..... leong kok pan ( dua puluh sen)

Cina 1 : ohhhhhhhh no wonder ... eiiiiiiiii geli...

hehehe. punyalah kita gelak ( ala ala make believe story kan lariiiiiiii...) We finally pack our thing before 2 pm and head back to Bintulu and reach home at around 5.30. It was tiring coz of the journey but it was fun and rejuvenating and i would recommend people to go with thier friends and family for the weekend. Find your own fun with ur closest freinds.

Total weekend cost per person.

Hotel cost ( plus breakfast) : RM 78++

Entertainment cost ( minum lite lite ) : RM 40.00

Dinner : RM 15.00

Shopping ( Kasut bonia + baju) : RM 120.00 ( ini pun sebab sale) This is optional tau.

Petrol : RM 50.00

Total cost : RM 303.00

Memories : Precious

Mercy voque.. madam mazel.

My sis with boboy in Paris 2007

(As requested by her)

Its nearly the end of May 2007 and still i havent been anywhere this year. I remember last year I went to Manila on April 06 and September 2006 i went to Phuket. So kira this year kurenglah sikit aku ni berjalan. Reason y i didnt go anywhere was i am saving to go to UK and hopefully Paris next year.

Mau tengok The Eifel Tower. My sister said she was beautiful and breathtaking. Well i hope and my aim is to go there next year. ........ Anyone want to ikut me ke. BTW today kerajaan kan dah umumkan kenaikan gaji for pegawai kerajaan.

(1-16)= 35%

(17-40)=25%

(41-53) = 15% (we are here guys)

Jusa + 7.5%

yahoo hebat kan. naik lagi gaji kita ni.I pun baru je naik gaji sebab lulus PTK ini naik lagi bagus betul rejeki tahun ni. UP LAGIIIIIIII...........

SYUKUR KEPADA PAK LAH .....YOU GO GIRL.

Monday Blues.

HOW I HATE MONDAYS..
THESE IS MY SHOUT OUT TO YOU GUYS:-

Who would guess....

Who would have guessed that one day the 4 of us would be what we are today and all grown up.




This picture was taken at my dad's grave yard a few month after he passed away. A trial life for all of us especially my Mother..









This is taken in Kg Titingan (Those days called Ice box). But funny because when you are at the moment you don't really feel life is hard. I guess the focus is more towards our studies and more on growing up.









Then comes us all grown up.. Making it in our own, living our lives in the big world out there, the main focus is still making it tru and having a good life.







Gosh the memories i had... i wouldn't change.

A view of innocence..

So here are my beloved nephew and nieces starting from :

Mr Aaron Siva Jr. My oldest sisters son (Inday). All grown up now and called just now to ask me some nice filipino words to say to a girl . He called himself now "A hunk" gosh kids nowadays.

Miss Aishah Mohd Jamil. My second sister (Toto) 1st born. She's

the one with the strip dress ( Such a tomboy) Use to call her cha ... dulu kecil nakal betul...

Guess where she got it... hehehe. jawap toto jangan tak jawap.

Then comes Miss Grace Vitalingam ( Indays second born)

A very lady like kinda girl ( btw thats my mum)

Loves singing and very competetive... thats one thing i dont have ..

Then comes Ahmad Mohd Jamil

You're the man boy... hehe Toto's second born

A boy that you can sit and have a conversation.. a truly gentelman.

Then comes Afique Daniel Mohd Jamil (btw i named him)

Sungguhlah dia ni nakal and cute. heheh.

Toto third born. He is so attach to my mum.. the lola.. pagi pagi mesti cari lola dia.

The comes the youngest so far

Ian Gerald Lajot

My brothers first born.

The first born to bring the Lajots name..

These are my family diamond .. the start of a new generation of Lajot... Love u guys and study hard and make us all proud.

BILL ASTRO NAIK LAGI.

Punyalah benci aku hari ini, Astro send me a letter saying that they are going to raise up thier bill :

Harga pekej sekarang : 79.95
Harga pakej baru : 93.95

whats next... RM 150.00 ke. bosan betul. Barang semua naik, gaji kita cam tu tu jugak. Patut kerajaan ini bersetuju untuk naikkan gaji kita sampai 30% and above, to compensate our month bills yang melanbung naik ini.

Lainlah kalau illa, sanggup tengok TV 1, 2 and NTV 7 in order not to pay anything. Gosh tahan juak ya nangga TV kerajaan kan. Balik balik cerita tamil, drama swasta and Bintang RTM, according to her, yang paling bestlah dia tengok is CSI. Itu pun series yang lama kan. Tapi with illa ni pun dia tak tengok sangat pun cerita-cerita bahasa inggeris ni, she is more to those engge purengge movies where all people are drama queen, so sesuailah dengan dia yang Drama queen too.

Oh btw, my sister called from london just now, she is going to have her PTK course in either Kl or Miri. At first ingat nak suruh dia buat di miri je, but then again maybe kalau tidak ada aral melintang i'm going to continue my studies in KL for 6 month so cancell lah suruh dia buat di KL je. Harap-harap management lepas me for 6 month in kl for my masters.

Oklah, i have to go and hope u like the new song i posted maroon 5 tu.

KILO GRAMS....

God, did you saw American Idol last night. Who would have guess that Melinda Doolittle would be booted our of the competition. She was so consistent among all the contestant.

I have always put my money on her since the first time i watch the first episode, but i guess then again LOOKS IS MORE THAT JUST PURE TALENT. How i hate when people discriminise other for thier looks. I read from other blogges in the US that they disciminate Melinda because she doesnt have the Idol looks. Well, so canteklah tu Fantasia Berrino. Tolonglah...

Tapi apa apa pun, its thier Idol, so what the heck. Its the Amecian people's lost. Gosh why am I so emotional for nothing kan. Sudahlah.

What i am trying to express this morning is that sometimes looks doesn't last. I remember when i first came to UPM to continue my studies GOSH everybody is thin. That is including me lah.. but now after all of us are working and leading our own life, all of us grew horizontally. The weight keeps going up and never really goes down.

I remember the last reunion i had with my friends in KL was last year. These are the people that i use to hang out after all of us graduated. It was like everyhody just blotted up like a balloon. So you see, its not how u looks like that counts but its who you are from the inside. No matter how beautiful or handsome you are by the end of the day its the motherboard aka your brain that counts.

PATUTKE.. OR PERLU KE..

Pepagi lagi tadi, illa dah call me up, sebab last Sunday one of my kawan Wahi yang kerja di UPM ni ajak p makan somewhere dekat City Point. Ada satu menu which they all masak kulit ayam with sambal and sesampainye wah sesampainye ni lariiiiiii.... aku ke rumah i told illa all about it.

She was all excited, macam budak yang baru berjumpa dengan her favourite toy and lepas tu everyday dia beg me to bring her to that place. So pagi ini kami pergilah berdua, but to her dismay the menu yang i mentioned to her tu tidak ada, dengan hati yang patah she told me that we want to eat lite lite je. and i order the roti special with topping daging ( sikit pulak tu)with air limau. Then the big mama pun startlah mau order..illa ni memang kalau masa nak pilih lauk or menu lambat sangat sebab aku rasalah dia tak tau nak pilih apa, takut nanti salah pilih rugi pulak he he he.

So dia pun pilihlah breafast dia which is NASI LEMAK SPECIAL .. and air limau ( to kompliment the lelemaklah kunun). Gosh.. itulah tu yang dinamakan lite-lite. Atas alasan tak mau makan banyak oh ye one more thing , she mentioned to the waitress " Dik kalau daging rendang tu jangan letak banyak minyak". Lerrrrrrrrr ingatkan dia nak cakap tak payah rendang.

After that masa untuk kami membedal and illa didnt finish her air limau sebab she said takut lapar balik. soooooooo PATUT KA OR PERLU KE... entahlah you tell me.

HOW DO WE MEASURE A MAN

This morning when i woke up, a question POP tru my mind:

"HOW DO WE MEASURE A MAN"

Gosh.. I guess alot of us likes to think that " A man is made by the amount of money, properties or children that you got". For me what defines a man are:

1. How much lives have you touched.
2. How many changes have you made tru ur adolesent life.
3. How many hands have u pulled up to be on the same boat as you.
4. How much gratitude people have towards you.
5. How much Good deeds have you done throughout our lives.

but most of all........and foremost ...

HAVE YOU BEEN THE TEMPLE OF GOD.

I dont know .. how about u. then.

HOW MUCH DO WE SPEND

Nah untuk siapa siapa yang banyak spend your money unwisely tengok ni , ikut.... jangan buang duit je memanjang.

OLD FRAMES...

I dont know if you are aware how old pictures are taken so profesionally . The angle and how those people look PReCIOUS.

Btw guys the front row from the left is my Dad, middle is my mum and the baby is my oldest sister. Yang lain tu, aku tak kenal. hehheeh.

CHRISTMAS TO ME.........

I know this is too early to post , but i just want to share my childhood expeciences especially comes Christmas.

As a child growing up in an Oil Palm Estate with my siblings and my Mum things are a lot simpler then. We have practically nothing accept for the common utilities such as a TV which at that time was only TV1, radio and a fridge.

Then comes Christmas...

Gosh Christmas to my family was something that we would look forward to..

even then we knew its going to be just a simple celebration but it meant so much. I remember my mum use to give us presents which at that time just like pencil case, pen, water colour and the most expensive thing that you could have is a school bag.

Oh ya , i think the most memorable Christmas gift i had was a motorcycle toy with a battery my mum bought for me. At that time material things are so far out of reach, not that we knew all this things. hehehe.

Comes Christmas eve, My mum will ask some guys from my village with cameras to come over to take our pictures and we have to dress up with our new dress in front of the Christmas tree.

I remember my sister was in the Red Cross and she have to use her new Red Cross dress for the Christmas photo. Punyalah kuno masa tu kan. He he.

After the photo session , my mum would ask the photographer to eat and drink some cheap boose and went home drank. Biasa diorang ni, tak biasa minum so ada juga yang muntah bila balik rumah. Punyalah penat masa tu bersihkan muntah orang.

We use to go to our immediate family home also during the holidays. Its either we went to Lahad Datu to my Aunt house or to my Grandmothers plance in Kunak / Mostyn. Funny because the same thing happen, we have to dress up and pause in front of the Christmas tree again. I remember my Aunty use to have this Christmas tree ( buat sendiri) using creep paper, wires and cotton.

DIY kan. Those days mana ada yang ready made.

So you see, i grew a custom of having a Christmas tree and pictures during Christmas time. This pic is taken at my house in Bintulu before i went off for my Christmas holiday 2006. I guess the concept of pausing in front of the Christmas tree is still the same but what differs is the amount of time and money setting up all the decorations and lighting. I use to tell my freinds that if Christmas comes everyday, i would be broke everymonth.

So now is May, i got 7 more month to prepare for Christmas this year.

WOULD we CHANGE our PAST

Before my birthday my sister called me up to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY
and something that she said really struck a cord to me:

" Now that you are older and senja ( he! he! gosh ) would you ever change your history "

Would I......
would you.......
would we..............

I dont know... but for me.. If i got the power to reverse back the future, i wouldn't change it even a little bit. The journey that i've been tru made me who i am today. Well i wouldn't say that i am perfect, but why would i want to change my future without me knowing ,what will i end up to be.

On the first place my history involves a lot of mix experiences ,bitter and sweet and to redo back all those troubles and poverty again, nahhhhhhhhh i wouldn't. I remember when i was a child my classmate had this pencil box ( yaaaaaaaa .. pencil box) that got this automatic compartment which able to open by itself and gosh i envy him to much and i asked my mum if i could have one but i guess deep inside i knew i could never have one.

The battle or unsecurity when i was growing up.........

The feeling of being so unperfect.....
The feeling of being so unacceptable ........
The feeling of being so unwanted..........
The feeling of being different.....
The feeling of being Ugly.....
But the most is ...........
The feeling of being unworthy to be loved...

well..... would i want to go tru it again.
No doubt , i still carry those feeling, but i have grown and i overgrown some of them. I still have issues but it wasn't as bad as when i was a little kid. I am more listened nowadays and what i feel and think ....matters. Thats what counts to me.

Everymorning when i step out of my house. The first step i took pause a smile to my face because " Today i am making a difference not only to me but to my nation and to the world". But i know there are more to accomplish , more to achieve, and i am glad i am here in the front row making a difference.

Life is like a journey .
We would never know what lies ahead.
a stormy weather ...
a beautiful island...
a pirate ship ( matilah di bunuh lariiiiiiiiii..........)
or even a hidden treasure ( bling bling)
So dont ever sail back but keep sailing

A PLEASANT SURPRISE

I thought that last nite would be another boring and monotonous night but it turned out to be pleasant surprise that one would never have guessed.

My friends planned a small belated birthday get together and guess what i surprieses me but "maintain maintain" hehe.

Well we had a black forest cake, sandwiches and soya bean. Althought its not great or what so ever ( Matilah melezer kawan-kawan) lariiiiii........ but its something nice and thougtful. Thanks guys.

later i make intro's on my weekend in Miri and also my weekend bbq. So tunggulah.

LOVE...hati dan perasaan.

Hati dan Perasaan...

...sesekali bercakap serius dan dari hati ke hati tak salahkan

...Mungkin Tuhan sengaja mahu kita berjumpa dengan orang yang salah sebelum menemui insan yang betul supaya apabila kita akhirnya menemui insan yang betul, kita akan tahu bagaimana untuk bersyukur dengan nikmat pemberian dan hikmah di sebalik pemberian tersebut. Apabila salah satu pintu kebahagiaan tertutup, yang lain akan terbuka tapi lazimnya kita akan memandang pintu yang telah tertutup itu terlalu lama hinggakan kita tidak nampak pintu yang telahpun dibukakan untuk kita...

...Kawan yang paling baik ialah seseorang yang anda boleh duduk di dalam buaian dan berbuai bersama tanpa berkata apa-apa pun dan kemudian berjalan pulang dengan perasaan bahawa itulah perbualan yang paling hebat yang pernah dialami.Memang benar yang kita tidak akan tahu apa yang telah kita punyai sehinggalah kita kehilangannya dan juga benar bahawa kita tidak tahu apa yang kita rindukan sehinggalah 'ia' datang...

...Memberi seseorang seluruh cinta anda bukanlah satu kepastian yang mereka akan menyintai anda kembali! Jangan harapkan cinta sebagai balasan. Nantikan sahaja ia untuk mekar di dalam hati mereka tapi sekiranya ia tidak, pastikanlah ia terus mekar di dalam hati anda. Ia cuma mengambil masa seminit untuk jatuh hati pada seseorang, satu jam untuk menyukai seseorang, satu hari untuk menyintai seseorang tetapi ia mengambil masa sepanjang hidup untuk melupakan seseorang...

...Kebahagiaan seseorang manusia tidak semestinya dalam memiliki segala yang terbaik. Mereka hanya membuat yang terbaik dalam hampir apa saja yang datang di dalam perjalanan hidup mereka. Kebahagiaan terletak kepada mereka yang menangis, mereka yang terluka, mereka yang telah mencari dan mereka yang telah mencuba. Hanya mereka yang boleh menghargai kepentingan manusia yang telah menyentuh hidup mereka. Cinta bermula dengan senyuman, mekar dengan ciuman dan berakhir dengan tangisan...

...Masa depan yang cerah sentiasa berteraskan kehidupan yang lalu yang telah dilupakan. Kita selalu tidak boleh meneruskan kehidupan dengan sempurna sehingga kita melupakan kegagalan dan kekecewaan masa silam...

...Semasa kita dilahirkan, anda menangis dan orang di sekeliling kita tersenyum. Teruskanlah hidup kita supaya apabila kita mati nanti, kitalah yang akan tersenyum dan orang sekeliling kita pula yang akan menangis

WE ARE BLESSED

3rd May ..... how i hate this date everyear. Sometimes we just want to forget some dates in our lives which brings alot of meaning. Well as you know its my date of birth and GOD I'M OLD.

yesterday when i browse tru someone blog i find out his poem, which i would like to share with u and maybe we could look at birthdays a little bit better and open.

I am getting OLDER..

Its my birthday Again.. ?

Current mood: lonely

I am getting OLDER..

Its my birthday Again.. Huh...?

Instead of counting candles,

Or tallying the years,

Contemplate your blessings,

As your birthday nears.

Consider special peopleWho love you,

and who care,

And others who've enriched your lifeJust by being there.

Think about the memories

Passing years can never march back ,

Experiences great and small t hat have made you who you are.

Another year is a happy gift,

So cut your cake, and say,

"Instead of counting birthdays,

I count blessings every day!"

so, hey its my birthday so be glad .

HAPPY 39TH BITHDAY TO ME ....

banyaknye candle aku tahun ni hehehe. penuh satu cake.