WOULD we CHANGE our PAST

Before my birthday my sister called me up to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY
and something that she said really struck a cord to me:

" Now that you are older and senja ( he! he! gosh ) would you ever change your history "

Would I......
would you.......
would we..............

I dont know... but for me.. If i got the power to reverse back the future, i wouldn't change it even a little bit. The journey that i've been tru made me who i am today. Well i wouldn't say that i am perfect, but why would i want to change my future without me knowing ,what will i end up to be.

On the first place my history involves a lot of mix experiences ,bitter and sweet and to redo back all those troubles and poverty again, nahhhhhhhhh i wouldn't. I remember when i was a child my classmate had this pencil box ( yaaaaaaaa .. pencil box) that got this automatic compartment which able to open by itself and gosh i envy him to much and i asked my mum if i could have one but i guess deep inside i knew i could never have one.

The battle or unsecurity when i was growing up.........

The feeling of being so unperfect.....
The feeling of being so unacceptable ........
The feeling of being so unwanted..........
The feeling of being different.....
The feeling of being Ugly.....
But the most is ...........
The feeling of being unworthy to be loved...

well..... would i want to go tru it again.
No doubt , i still carry those feeling, but i have grown and i overgrown some of them. I still have issues but it wasn't as bad as when i was a little kid. I am more listened nowadays and what i feel and think ....matters. Thats what counts to me.

Everymorning when i step out of my house. The first step i took pause a smile to my face because " Today i am making a difference not only to me but to my nation and to the world". But i know there are more to accomplish , more to achieve, and i am glad i am here in the front row making a difference.

Life is like a journey .
We would never know what lies ahead.
a stormy weather ...
a beautiful island...
a pirate ship ( matilah di bunuh lariiiiiiiiii..........)
or even a hidden treasure ( bling bling)
So dont ever sail back but keep sailing