Monday, May 28, 2007

Why this happen 2

this is another email from the same student. It kinda funny but humiliating for us because this is our product.

It is so difficult for me to use formal English, I just know ROJAK English! But no choice, now not practice when I still got the chance? Already wan go out work but then seems know nothing! I really no confident to work outside! That's also the reason why I choose back to MARDI or something I had done it before! He..he…

Holiday? I never think I got holiday? My holiday the most also just 1 day, if rest too much I'll be lazy like now! Actually now I do not apply any job yet, just flip the newspaper everyday without taking any action, not even my resume prepared! Because many of my friends at UPMKB said want come to me and if I got the job I sure cant bring the travel around so I choose not to search job first before they all back.

But there are some agencies in my mind already which I want apply like MARDI, Department of Agriculture and also UPMKB. Just that I don't know which to choose, because I know everything also got its advantages and disadvantages; I'm too greedy, just wan the advantages and cant accept the disadvantages, so this make me difficult to choose!

Ok, I think is not good also I waste your time, because I really can type till an assay if want to tell everything in my mind! I do feel sorry to disturb you!

So is that means I can join department of agriculture if I had quite from MARDI, for example? Just that I cannot join back MARDI right? Or my name will be black listed in all government sectors?

I really got the heart want to works at government, maybe after I had tried for private company because I think that might it be too fast I fasten myself with government sector? Because in my mind, if you works in government sector, you cant get in touch with many people (is my concept wrong). For example, if I work in private sector, I can change the job after few years work at the company; even I can try out the new area of work then can know different people in different area.

I also know the government sector got lots of benefit, even my brother also ask me go apply government jobs. The reason why I like government sector is as the case of Mr Allan, I don't like much $, I just want a secured life! Government sector can provide this, I don't like to work in pressure condition, im so lazy, just want easy life. He…….he………..

I prefer private not because of the salary but the chance to meet different people is bigger (my personal concept),I know everything is not easy, I never said anythings is easy except I had done it!

I don't want send many application (as what you told me as many application as possible to anywhere) because I scare that how if I get the job successfully and yet I got none knowledge of what the job is how am I going to handle that? Again the same thing (I got no confident).

Actually, I know apply MARDI also wont said that i'm d one who sure will get the post but I'll try this is I want to, because at least I did my practical there before. I also know that I might send to other department or even not in Serdang but other branch of MARDI, but my concern is I did my practical at MARDI Serdang before I know little about MARDI, with this point I got confident to try it out.

I never look down on the research assistant post before, in my mind just that I want faster get a job (not mean that I want to earn so many $, then become so rich), then pay my ptptn debt, have a very very extremely simple life ( I don't like luxury life; luxury lifestyle wont guarantee happy), I prefer hard works because it will healthier and happier. Maybe my thinking is too childish now but this is what in my mind now and I cant guarantee you how my thinking will be in the next second but this is what I think now.

I also never hope to climb to the top, I like to be in small position; the bigger post you are the higher pressure you will be in the unhappy you are! I also scare I cant handle if you give me high post!

I know you experience a lot before, you do share with us during the finishing school program.

Another reason why I don't want apply many is Im worried how I wan to reject people if they offered me the job, I don't know how to say no without annoying others.

You know why no matter how I also do not scare? Because I know no matter how worst I am outside I'll sure get a job, just that need extreme hard work (work at my dad coffee shop) that's the reason why I do not worried I got no job! He……….he………

Budak ni memang manja betul lah! Ha .ha..........but honesty its really really so difficult the life is but what good is you receive cash! My grandfather and father wake up 4am and works for so many years already! This also part of the reason why at first I keep on saying I want go back make coffee, because since very young I already heard their words saying how fortunate you all is, people send in $ to you all, you all also don't want go to receive it! And I do feel so sad always heard my grandfather complaining that he works till so tired and he got to do alot of works. We as his grandchild also cannot reduce his works really so sad! He is 80 years old already and he is so sad if the shop got to close up, the same things for my father. Although now my elder brother is helping them at shop, but shop really need more experts instead of just a worker.

Since young I already work at shop, during semester break I never search job outside, just help at shop (just nice to listen help at shop, actually is lazy don't want go find job outside. He…he…). Actually just the coffee shop also very long story already, continue next time, ok? Because tomorrow still need to wake up early (before 7am) to help at shop!

Finally I would like to say thanks again to you. I really feel so thankful you can spend a lot of time on me, hope I will not disappointed you.

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