Procastination

Procrastinate - To delay repeatedly and without reason in doing something that must be done.

if you notice recently, i tend to procrastinate things concerning my life, my LHDN, my blog, my exercise and alot more. Yesterday i had light breakfast with Mat ICT and we discussed something that struct a cord to me. He asked me if i am fed up with blogging.... same question my sister asked me too a few days ago.

WAS I, Not that i am tired or thinking of stopping but things is just too shaky for me at the moment. Since the accident i just couldn't sit down and write, as flashes comes and goesin front of my eyes , but then again thats just reasons. Haji Rodzlan use to say to me " Boss kita nak result bukan Reason" and i used to concur with him on that but now see what i become. I guess the accident took half of my life and courage, courage to be more advanterous and daredevil.

I notice that lately my heart rate goes down termoundously and little things like someones faulty doesn't really bother me that much. I tend to be more tolerable towards other people's weakness or blunders. Is this good?? i don't know?? I use to be the catalyst and would react on the dot when i face a difficult situation but ... now entahlah ..susah nak cerita lah.

I hope this is just phase in my life a life that i've missed, but anyway i'm glad because i finish my LHDN and file back the mountain pile of letters and papers on my desk. Senang sikit tengok my desk now, senang kalau nak pindah kan.

I will try to finish my composed entry that i was trying to finish by this week, and give you comments on that too okay.

Mild Pain.

Lamanye tak update my blog, actually i did compose an entry but never got to finish it, my brain goes numb and empty, my sister asked me yesterday "Y no entry ur blog", and i told her that i am still writing but lately i got writers block.

Oh BTW i didn't go to work yesterday, my mums is sick ( not that serious but she is in some pain) so i decided to Nurse her at home ( One of my Job spec when i was a student in Serdang last time hehehe). Well you know our parents, when they come over to our home, they wanted to compensate for their absents all those years. redoing back all of our laundry and dishes , even when we already washed them. Luckily i got some girls come over to my house to do my cleaning up or else she would do that as well. Anyway the day before yesterday My mum was talking her bath and tried to sweep the floor as its kinda slippery and she accidental hurt , buckle her up on the bed to rest and on the TV to accompany her inside the room. Risau jugak coz the last visit she had a bad fall on my bathroom and she was hospitalised for nearly 2 weeks.

I msg my siblings about the matter just to inform them ( oldowlah its not that serious) my oldest sister asked me to buy some drugs to reduces the swelling and pain.

So, thank god she is fine today and last night she manage to sit in front of the TV and this morning she can stand up by herself. I told her not to do any house chores and just focus on getting better.

I am so thankful that this time i was okay during her pain and able to take it in as compared to the last time hehehe, i was a total wreck lol, and i would like to thank my Brother in Law , Siva Subramaniam for subscribing good drugs for my mum. I guess he is one person that i took for granted all these years that have contributed so much for our family, gosh how my recent accident opened my eyessssssss...

Inter-related things.

Today here i am sitting in front of my computer doing nothing, i send my application to transfer to Serdang but our Dean is not around. I hope he would approve it so i can go on and continue my life with being afraid inside and outside the campus.

My car is still not ready ( its seems that the workshop i send my car , is doing thier work so slow) not like my previous workshop, and now i'm having problems with my motorcycle coz last week on Wednesday i got a punctured and i send my byke to our workshop just a simple work to be done and paid my boys RM 38.00 for only the tube plus another RM 10.00 for his work but then last friday he told me that the new tube he bought is also a faulty, and look at me in a blurry way .. nak duit lagilah tu. Then i told him to replace it with a new one and after that he was no where to be found. Geramnye aku but i keep my temper.. i guess with all that has been goind in my my life i slowly manage to control my temper.

This morning Carlina's insurance agent came and suggest for me to claim the 2 weeks im not working at my hospitalization. Entahlah dapat ke tak dapat yang penting claim je. I tried to pay my bills tru Maybank.2u but tak boleh pulak coz according to the call centre once u change ur card u need to reregister on Maybank2u.com. Adus dah berapa hb ni i belum bayar my bills lagi. Lewat dah ni. tengoklah maybe this afternoon i will try to bayar my bills and reregister for Maybank2u.

When is all of this going to end ya.........

The last lecture.

Randy Pausch is a married father of three, a very popular professor at Carnegie Mellon University—and he is dying. He is suffering from pancreatic cancer, which he says has returned after surgery, chemotherapy and radiation. Doctors say he has only a few months to live.

In September 2007, Randy gave a final lecture to his students at Carnegie Mellon that has since been downloaded more than a million times on the Internet. "There's an academic tradition called the 'Last Lecture.' Hypothetically, if you knew you were going to die and you had one last lecture, what would you say to your students?" Randy says. "Well, for me, there's an elephant in the room. And the elephant in the room, for me, it wasn't hypothetical."


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My fatal accident.

SORRY for not updating my blogs, As some of u know i had a fatal accident on the 20 March 2008. I'll tell you the story and what i discovered about myself, my sibling and the world. Its a terrirying experience but, somehow it made me realise things in a minute ways , things that i would never give a second look at.


This is my twinkle toe that was cut off. I had to go for an operation to be stiched up.


And here is me.



I had 12 stiches on my face and almost 17 stiches on my arm and my twinkel toe.