A Big blow up.

I guess you would be wondering, whats the blow up araoundabout. hehe.

Lately my middle name is Urgency ... urgency to finish up the work.. urgency to do and finalise my store inventory and its getting on my nerves that my staff is taking things lightly.

I instructed staff to finish up with the inventory before the external audit came ( that would be on the 5th Nov) but he's kinda like talking his sweet time doing it. The problem is, I've asked him to finish it almost 2 month now but he keeps on delaying it and my store is still the same old and Topsy turvy store as it was before i came in.

So yesterday i take my initiative to rerecord back all the inventory and made all the items label even laminating it ( that's how urgent i need to finish it), and when my staff finds out i did all that, he just took it from me and do nothing. Ahhhhhhhh geramnye aku.

Then this morning , i was expecting him to do the tagging and to rearrange the store , he went away for raya celebration and he is no where to be found. I keep my temper and i help up with the upkeeping of my store and he finally came in at around 10 am ( siapa tak geram) and he said he already inform my other staff about it which i wasn't told ( sial betul).

That was okay, i can still handle it and we finally finish rearranging and tagging at around 12.30 am and yang best nye pulak, my staf yang datang lewat ni , went home earlier than me. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ..

We still haven't finish yet cos we still need to rearrange the chemical room but we have to postpone it coz everybody went back home. So after lunch i came back and found nobodys around. I came in, do the rearrangement myself and then he came in at around 3 pm and his reason is nak pergi sembahyang. BULL SHIT, orang lain pun solat jugak, tapi taklah sampai jam 3.

Then i had a big blow up .. my temper went upstairs hehe I told them that i was very disappointed with their behaviour... MARAH NI . .. marah sangat. They ware quiet maybe they know that im mad ( i ni jarang marah.. tapi kalau dah marah.. pengsan). Then my staff ( yang male ni lah) told me that dia tak ada initiative kerja coz he heard lately that i was not happy with his work. That he felt very down going to work coz all he did is just not enough for me. OKKKKKKKKK i may have something to do with it coz lately i been buzzing to my other staff that i was not satisfy with his performance. He said that i should have been more direct in what i want and expect.. hasn't i been more direct??? i asked him like 2 months ago to finish the inventory and until now its not done.

So after we talk and discuss ( itu pun lepas dengar aku marah), i told them, i do apologise for what ever things that they are not happy about me but i only expect that they do thier work and i am fine with that. I hope so that my boy will shape a little up so that my work will be lighter. Penat ohhhhh marah marah ni, i don't like. I've promise myself that i will be more tolerant to my staff right after i quit my job in the Oil Palm Plantation.

You should see me before ... when i was working in the plantation.. i was the cruelest person on earth. I even shouted at my mandore(my head gang) telling her that she is worthless. I could click just like that and be a raging bull, but not anymore. Nowadays i do things politically but sometimes......... if things go out of hand i will be a small raging bull too. hehe. tu pun jarang je. Normally i am a jolly person.

Now this feels good. .. letting it out of my chest. ahhhhhhhhh blogging is a teraphy.