My hopes

Its been a long time since I wrote, a lot of thing going in with my life with the new office and the endless work I had.

Today I heard some bad news covering my other collogues. It seems that the Government impose a new ruling that all Phd and Masters should be done locally. I remember they impose the same thing a few years ago and a lot of those people that suppose to go overseas didn’t make it and have to continue their studies locally but then it was lifted a year back and all money was pumped into sending them overseas, then it was impose again. Gosh this government people they always have this changing rules making its unpredictable and unstable for some people.

There are pro and cons working in the Government sector actually, I remember the first time I join the University, my assistant Edward who was working for UPM for almost 2 and a half decade told me that soon you be worn out with all the red tapes and the politics going on in the University. I was so paranoid and told myself that “ now that could happen to other people , but definitely not me, because I am a survivor anddddddddd I want to make a difference.

Then for the last few months I struggled just to convince him and especially myself that I could beat the system and beat the normal norm of what people’s expectation working with the Government. I tried to beat the odds and everyday polishing my staff so that they would feel encourage, fired and most of all inspired in their work. Fuh was I in for a big ride,…. Soon I discover how hard it is to make changes, how what you said and worked hard for doesn’t really count , what count wassssss… how well you could interact with your superior and how good are you in your PR with your bosses. The more you say yes , the more you’ll be safe. But I guess I learn it the hard way , I was a vocal and full of opinions hoping that I would make a difference and be a catalyst. I guess my traits of formerly working for a big and recognize company made who I was before, a dynamic and innovative human being and that was the spirit that I want to instill and fought in order for us to grow. Well for the first year, I thought am making progress of changing their perception but most of all I was proud that I made my staff love their job. I remember one of my staff Abang Nazeri told me one day , he said Mr Allan now I have reasons to wake up in the morning to work a feeling that was lost before and now I found it back. Gosh that felt good hearing,

Then, comes the rain… I called it the big black cloud over my head. Hehehe. Then suddenly the work that you put up for years suddenly go flush down the drain. Everyday it chips me bit by bit making you lost you identity. Sometimes I felt going to work like a Zombie “ working without reasons and a destination”. The flame that burns so immensely before suddenly turn into ash.

But now I realize what Edward meant perfectly. No matter how hard you work, you’ll end up burning up yourself. I also realize that saying yes saves… although sometimes you have to say no but most of the time its safe to say yes. I also learnt that a lot of people cannot accept changes.. but if you are to do changes then.. you have to do it slowly. A big a dramatic changes can only cause you pain and a lot of disappointment.

My hopes…
My hopes that someday , everybody will change for the better. I hope that everybody can accept changes and that everybody could be an inspiration to others.
I hope that instead of criticizing and pointing peoples fault , why not find his best values and work to improve and inspire.
I hope that people wouldn’t be a chauvinist pig on what other people’s weakness.
I hope that one day the person that reaches his hands up the ladder to success would lend his hand down to pull up another person.

Tua Sebelum Waktunya...

Entahlah, kadang tu rasa cepat sangat dunia ni berputar, its just seems yesterday i was in my Primary school, then its secondary school in SMK Kuhara, then work in a plantation for a while soon after that going to the University to continue my studies and soon i found out that i am reaching my 40's.

It seems that life passes us by so fast without us having any power to control it. Have we make a difference in our lives, have we change or touch somebody's life and soul today and make the world a better place.

Have we seen the world, or are we just congest ourself with our daily activities without talking time to consider our soul. I know sometimes its kinda selfish thinking about our own needs but then again, being happy started with us and then only we can share the love and the joy around with others.

See the world and enjoy life , i remember a quote from somebody saying " instead of wrafting agains the current , why not follow the flow of the river and see what enstore for us along the way, you might be amaze with the treasure you find". Thats what a friend of mine Abdul Mohammad a wise young man told me this morning, he said that why not follow what the Deans suggested for our Masters, and see what enstore for us, instead of us running against him. Life is much more pleasant when you dont fight but go along with.

To my friends who read my blogs... well guys change our life today and enjoy to the fullest. Sometimes we would'nt know our faith in life and maybe God might take it today, so make the most of it right now, go for holidays and do it before you are too old or too dead. He He He. You deserve it and make it a gift for yourself.

LONDON'S INTEREST

So, today i was browseing tru the internet and found some places to visit in London. Jadi inilah tempat kami nak pergi nanti, well one those places yang we want to visit kan.

Brit Flag U'Oll untuk siapa yang tak kenal Brit Flag.

Ahaks kunolah tu kalau tak tau Ops..

Inilah UK, selama ini I tak tau pun England dengan Scotland tu di pulau yang sama.

Matilah Geography Zero hehehe. And Now i knowlah kan.

There's always a real buzz in Piccadilly Circus – the buildings are lit up with dazzling electric signs, and there are always people standing by the Statue of Eros, waiting for friends. Piccadilly Circus leads you into Soho, Chinatown and Leicester Square, areas where you'll find restaurants, pubs, clubs, theatres and cinemas. It's where I spend my Friday nights!"

This is the Bukingham Palace. Tempat keluarga aku tinggal kat London, kan Queen E.

This is Greenwich

It's a spectacular bridge built in the late Victorian era. Tower Bridge is truly magnificent! It's great to see the bridge open to let ships through, which happens more often than you'd think; around 900 times a year. Walking across the bridge, you see the amazing views of London, although it can get quite windy. It really gives you a sense of old London – for me it's the ultimate London icon." Eh.. kalau tak silap aku ini London Bridge kan.

The London Eye. Jangan lupa andy kita kena naik jugak tower tu, walaupun mahal.

This is the Changing of guards in Buckingham Palace I think.

A must see

London Bridge _ Fergie

Guess what i started my English accent and My friend Zafri says " Sudah kau Allan, geli lah" we keep on giggling. And today I change my List of songs too, it London Bridge by Fergie. Ingat nak letak London Bridge is Falling down, with my two hands up above to allow people to go below it hehehee.

Do you remember the game " London Bridge is Falling down" where you and your friend raise your hands up singging that song and the other friends will go round you and the last person that finish the last song will have the london bridge fallen down and get caught.

SHOUT OUTTTTTTTTT now i got to see the real bridge. hehhee.

GAJI NAIKKKKKKKKKK

SERONOKNYE BULAN INI GAJI NAIK....
YAHOOOOOOOO...

Why is it getting hotter nowadays.

Climate Change is an increase in the near surface temperature of the Earth.

It is a term most often used to refer to the warming predicted to occur as a result of increased emissions of greenhouse gases. It is different from the term global warming in that climate change is more broad and refers in the wider sense to also include natural changes in climate.

Climate change has occurred on Earth as the result of natural influences and in cycles throughout the history of the Earth; however, the current warming we are experiencing and that is expected to continue is purported to be the result of human-caused increases in greenhouse gases, specifically carbon dioxide.

There is more carbon dioxide in the atmosphere now than there has been in the past 650,000 years. The carbon dioxide stays in the atmosphere and acts like a warm blanket that holds in the heat. This phenomenon is called the greenhouse effect.

One thing to keep in mind is that having some greenhouse gases in our atmosphere is not bad. We do need some warmth on the Earth or we would not have the proper narrow range of temperature that allows us to have the right conditions for breathable air, clean water and mild weather.

In fact, the Earth in general would be too cold to inhabit without some greenhouse gasses or the greenhouse effect.

However, it is believed that humans have begun to tip the balance and overload the atmosphere with too many greenhouse gases from our cars, factories and power plants – gasses that trap more heat and can lead to devastating changes in our environment. If we don’t start fixing the problem now, we are in for more extreme temperatures, rises in sea levels and more destructive storms.

Recycle, recycle and recycle

He he he, i am sure alot of my friends would be wondering why suddenly i'm into recycling and going green and stuff. Well i remember when i was a little kid, the weather is so predictable and we use to have 2 dry season and the heavy rain would be around May and December during Christmas.

But nowadays things were relatively different with the frequent rain and unpredictable heat, things was a little bit out of hand. Did you watch Oprah Whinfrey last night on channel 10, Al gore was on talking about his dvd " The unconvinient Truth". I guess global warming is not a new thing to us, but have we react to it, what have we dont in order to preserve the earth. You know what really struct a cord to me was the drowning of the polar bear because they couldn't find any more glaciers and they have to swim 60 miles or more to find the next glaciers and some of them drown before they could reach one. Glaciers are melting in the north and south pole resulting to the rise of water and eventually the map of the world would be change and alot of the town and cities on the edge of the open sea will soon drown.

Do also notice that the earth is getting hotter and hotter, but in some countries its pouring rain resulting to flood and natural catastrophy. Global warming is a result of the thinning of forest and chopping down of the natural forest resulting of higer percentage of Carbon dioxicde in the air.

Ten Basic Tips To Help Stop Climate Change

Don’t have a lot of time, but want to take action? Here are ten, simple, everyday things each of us can do to help stop climate change. Pick one, some, or all. Every little effort helps and adds up to a whole lot of good.

Change a light. Replacing a regular light bulb with a compact fluorescent one saves 150 pounds of carbon dioxide each year.*

Drive less. Walk, bike, carpool, take mass transit, and/or trip chain. All of these things can help reduce gas consumption and one pound of carbon dioxide for each mile you do not drive.

Recycle more and buy recycled. Save up to 2,400 pounds of carbon dioxide each year just by recycling half of your household waste. By recycling and buying products with recycled content you also save energy, resources and landfill space!

Check your tires. Properly inflated tires mean good gas mileage. For each gallon of gas saved, 20 pounds of carbon dioxide are also never produced.

Use less hot water. It takes a lot of energy to heat water. Reducing the amount used means big savings in not only your energy bills, but also in carbon dioxide emissions. Using cold water for your wash saves 500 pounds of carbon dioxide a year, and using a low flow showerhead reduces 350 pounds of carbon dioxide. Make the most of your hot water by insulating your tank and keeping the temperature at or below 120.

Avoid products with a lot of packaging. Preventing waste from being created in the first place means that there is less energy wasted and fewer resources consumed. When you purchase products with the least amount of packaging, not only do you save money, but you also help the environment! Reducing your garbage by 10% reduces carbon dioxide emissions by 1,200 pounds.
Adjust your thermostat. Keeping your thermostat at 68 degrees in winter and 78 degrees in summer not only helps with your energy bills, but it can reduce carbon dioxide emissions as well. No matter where you set your dial, two degrees cooler in the winter or warmer in the summer can mean a reduction of 2,000 pounds of carbon dioxide a year.

Plant a tree. A single tree can absorb one ton of carbon dioxide over its lifetime.

Turn off electronic devices when not in use. Simply turning off your TV, VCR, computer and other electronic devices can save each household thousand of pounds of carbon dioxide each year.

Stay informed. Use the Earth 911 Web site to help stay informed about environmental issues, and share your knowledge with others. Together, we can and do Make Every Day Earth Day!

A spontaneous decision

As you know , i tak jadi sambung belajar because my Dean decided that i should continue my studies in Bintulu instead doing it in Serdang. But i was always optimistic that something good should come out of this but who would think that i decided to go to UK instead.

Well actually the decision was made between me and Andy, hehee Me and andy make a pack that before one of us got married we would one day travel together and it seems that he is getting married next year ( ops sorry Andy another annocement lariiiiiiiiii...) so we decided that its just nice to go to UK this year, and kami pun amik kesempatang with my sister kat sana. So we can save on the accomodation and makan sikit sikitlah. After both of us made a decision i called my sister Inday in KL to inform her about my plans and Carlina step in my room and asked what is it about. I told her of my decision and she show interest in going as Carlina ni dah lama jugak nak jalan-jalan keluar Malaysia. Last year Carlina suppose to visit Phillipines but due to some minor romours about some coincident in Manila , dia pun tak jadilah pergi. I pergi je, berani mati ni hehehe. So this time she ask me if she can follow me instead, i ok je, so after that she text her husband and green light pun menyala. So jadilah kami 3 musketeer.

Then i called my niece Diding if she wants to come along with me but, to her dismay she refuse pulak sebab according to her dia ada banyak sangat kerja with Ryan wedding coming up, then yesterday morning she called me up again telling of her intention to follow , SOOOOOO ADUS RAMAINYA KAMI JALAN NI 4 ORANG ini sudah bagus the more the merrier kan. I supose to give Andy my money today but with my cramp schedule today ( ada practical student) i terpaksalah withdraw my money esok pulak.

Do you know whats my feelings right now, i feeling like in cloud nine. Bayangkan naik kereta to Brunei and singgah di Dubai barulah ke london, wow 3 negara i cover punyelah seronok kan. I hope things will come smoothly along with the journey.

I know this is a sign from God , so i thank God for all things happening in my life.

UPDATES

OH BTW, NANTI IM GIVING EVERYONE UPDATES ON LONDON, AND OUR JOURNEY THERE SO WATCH OUT FOR THAT OKAY.

CANT WAIT .AAAAAAAAAAA........... BENCI NYE AKUUUUUUU....

LONDON HERE I COME

OH MY SISTER, ME MYSELF, ANDY AND CARLINA IS COMING TO LONDON , WE DECIDED TODAY , WE WILL BE COMING TO LONDON ON THE 14 OCTOBER UNTIL 26 OCTOBER, CALL ME OKAY.

IM SO EXCITED,

MEMANDANGKAN AKU TAK JADI SAMBUNG BELAJAR, SO AKU P MELANCUNG LAH PULAK. HE HE.

LONDON HERE I COME

OH MY SISTER, ME MYSELF, ANDY AND CARLINA IS COMING TO LONDON , WE DECIDED TODAY , WE WILL BE COMING TO LONDON ON THE

Joke for life

Chinpeng

I was looking for an empty space to park my car at Bangsar when suddenly

there's a knock on the glass"Encik ah..tanya sikit ah..itu Chimpeng mana ah..?""Apa?""Chimpeng, Chimpeng...saya sudah tanya itu guard ah..

dia ckaap sini ada satu Chimpeng...""Sorrylah Apek. Saya tak tau woh...Apa tempat itu Chimpeng?""Aiyah...itu Chimpeng balu punya..Saya mau pigi angkat wang la..."

"Tarak tau la boss. Itu kedai ka apa?Along ka?"

"Chimpeng bukan kedai ma..lu itu pun tak tau ah..?

itu Chimpeng macam ituMaypeng, Public Peng, RHetB Peng...itu balu punya peng..

"Adoi...bengap punya apek..buat aku pening je..dia actually cari CIMB Bank..

Air

One day in a class room a teacher is teaching Science and the topic for today is gasses.

So the teacher asked the class

Teacher :" Can anyone name me and example of any kind of gasses around us.

Student 1: Oxygen teacher

Teacher: Good very good, anymore..

Student 2: Hidrogen teacher

Teacher: Good very good, anymore.. anyone... fadzilah... give me one example

Fadzilah: errrrr... errrrrrrr...(mak tak tau lah ).. LACTOGEN teacher..(lari).....

Teacher: What??????????? you very the bodoh

Oh by the way this is only a rekaan belaka, so dont you be hengry or hannoy hokey.

Mothers hear this..

WHY WOMEN LET THEMSELVES GO

Have you ever thought why people especially mothers and in particularly housewife let themselves go , from being an outgoing, pleasantly looking, fun and loving person to this bitter, fat and self unorganized person ( tapi tak jugak semulalah, ada juga mothers yang cantek dan bergaya). Normally parents and in particularly mothers would let go of themselves eg. appearance wise contohnya pakaian selebet je and their self confidence resulting to low self esteem.

These are a few reasons why Women Let Themselves Go:-

1.0 Women aren't on their own list of priorities.

After taking care of everyone else, they are always putting themselves last on the list, and often have very little left to give. There are many women who aren't living—they are just existing. This is a form of self-abuse. Women often wear their exhaustion as a badge of honor. The more you do for your loved ones, the more acceptable it becomes to "let yourself go." Women believe it's okay to become a "sacrificial lamb" within their own families. This is a lie that we allow ourselves to buy into, but we need to wake up! The challenge for women is that they must re-language what it means to be a wife and mother. Being a good wife and mother means that if you don't take care of yourself, in the long run you are ultimately harming all the other people you love in your life. You won't be the only one who takes the hit.

2.0 Fear of Competition.

Media and society frequently tell women we need to portray ourselves as "together" and be able to perform any task thrown our way. But when women look at the reality of how overwhelmed they feel in their own lives, they begin to feel like they are not good or worthy enough. Women often see other women who look like they are "doing it all"—and then when they compare themselves, they become overwhelmed and feel inadequate. It's not easy to face feelings of inadequacy so women usually end up avoiding them. But women need to know you can't show up in your own life if you are on the run. They tell themselves they are too tired and burdened to compete with others so they don't believe they have the power to change anything. Then they "drop out" of the game—they give up and let themselves go.

3.0 Unresolved anger contributes to letting go.

Sometimes women "drop out" because they don't know how to send a verbal message that says, "Get off my back." They have unresolved feelings of anger or rage toward someone or about something so they "let themselves go" to express that. When women give up on themselves, they are often sending messages of anger and it could be because of something traumatic that happened in the past or because of unhappiness in a current relationship…like with a parent, husband, or child.

4. We let fear take over.

Women become paralyzed in their lives and let themselves go because of an underlying fear. A fear of rejection, a fear to accept how they really feel about themselves, a fear of facing the idea that they aren't enough, a fear of accepting how others may feel about them. They let the fear take over and let other people determine their own self worth. The internal barometer that gauges, guides and directs your life as an empowered woman—that makes you know you are enough and okay—is broken and needs to be fixed.

Inspirational and Motivational Quotes.

1) Never expect things to happen.. struggle and make them happen.
never expect yourself to be given a good value create a value of your own

2) If a drop of water falls in lake there is no identity. But if it falls on a leaf of lotus it shine like a pearl. so choose the best place where you would shine..

3) Falling down is not defeat...defeat is when your refuse to get up...

4) Ship is always safe at shore... but is not built for it

5) When your successful your well wishers know who you are when you are unsuccessful you know who your well wishers are

6) It is great confidence in a friend to tell him your faults; greater to tell him/her

7) "To the world you might be one person, but to one person you just might be the world

8) "Even the word 'IMPOSSIBLE' says 'I M POSSIBLE' "

9) Effort is important, but knowing where to make an effort in your life makes all the difference.

Be thankful

Enlighten me on this… have you ever felt that you take your life for granted. For instance waking up in the morning and going to work everyday even when you don’t feel like going or looking at yourself saying what a boring day its going to be today the same old chores. I think each and everyone of us did that without even realizing that life is too short and it is suppose to celebrated everyday.

I guess sometimes we don’t realize how precious life can be, how much God have enthrone us with all this wondrous things in life, but have we ever been thankful for it.

Be thankful for :-

• Having to wake up in the morning because its another day of you making the most in life, having to make a difference in your life and people around you.
• Going to work every morning, and realizing that you got a job that gets you going even to a point that you think its monotonous because some other people don’t get to realize that because there jobless.
• Caught up in a jam, at least you got wheels.. some people are standing up in the bus with the smell and the air-condition that doesn’t really works.
• That you could spend another day with your family even with the yelling, the drama and most of all the fights because when they are dead and gone you never go say hello and say that I love you.
• For the parents that you have and still breathing because some people didn’t get to experience that. Some orphan child would die to have what you have, so be thankful that you still got your elders and don’t forget to express your love everyday.
• Another day to say call and to say I love you to your siblings. Because when they are gone, then you only wish you could say that and let them know how much their lives make a great difference in yours.
• For the friends that you have, and how the laughter and the wonderful journey you have together. Even sometimes things are rough its just a way of life dealing with you.
  For the gift of being able to appreciate your surroundings and the gift of music. Imagine being deaf and blind the next day.
• For the body that you have today, that you can still open and arms and give your love ones a big hug so cherish your health and take good care of your body.
• For the country you live in, because in another world they are hunger and war.
  
  And many-many more wonderful things in life. Be glad that we have another day of breathing and experiencing at least we have another day of it, because some people didn’t got another chance.

Are you losing hair... down there

We as human being have similarities with animals (Mestilah makan, minum dan nafsu). Tapi have you ever wonder why we have our pubic hair and also hair growing on our armpits. Haaaaaaaaaaa mesti you tak tau kan…. Bagi yang tak tau .. inilah jawapannya and bagi yang dah tau ….diam-diam je.

We our body hair are as similar with the animal fur. One of the function of the hair in animals are to retain/trap the pheromone hormone to attract the opposite sex that being secreted during the time of libido. This will enhance the sexual desire of the opposite sex for mating.

The same function occurs to us human being. Have you ever wonder why most of the hair only appears mainly on the armpits and genital area and also the head. Well the function of hair is obviously to protect the brain from being too hot or cold but have you ever wonder why the armpits and genital area. Well it was believe that that area the most trapped our pheromone hormone is around the armpits and also the genital area.. Maknanye tempat-tempat ini selalu basah dan can retain smell for the purpose of matinglah. Lebih-Lebih lagi untuk siapa-siapa yang bau badankan. Hehe. The body odor is suppose to attract the opposite sex to enhance sexual desire. But, nowadays having a body odor is a no-no thing where it’s a big turnoff when having smelly armpits or smelly pubic hair.

As human grow older, their body will abort the hair especially when they are inactive in sex because the body tells the brains that they no longer need to produce pheromone. Ladies yang dah putus haid or menopause will notice that they will start growing facial hair eg. Mustache or beard. This happen because they are producing low percentage estrogen and inhabits them to grew beard and other facial hair.

So siapa-siapa yang dah matang tu if you are starting to lose pubic or armpit hair its normal hehe pelikkan. Well I read about this but if anyone got any comment on this please do write to me back and explain further. Maybe we could share more information. Just email it at allan@btu.upm.edu.my. Marilah kenali tubuh kita bersama-sama.

Intake...

Remember last few weeks when i mentioned that we are preparing for the new intake to arrive. Well blow me out ... they did come but only a partial of them came. The new intake is suppose to be around 500 plus and guess what? only 74 came.

It is actually a big slap for us.. does this means that our University is unpopular and that the students finds that UPMKB as not thier 1st choise, or is it because with the whole bunch of universities out in Malaysia the number of students is being discarted all over the nation leaving all the Universities studentless.

We have gathered some information that UMS and UNIMAS is having the same problem as well. I guess being situated in Peninsular Malaysia have the disadvantages as compared to being in West Malaysia. Iyelah manalah student yang vibrant and muda ni nak pergi ke hujung pelusuh negeri kat KK, Bintulu or even Kuching ni. KL is the answer to all this, as being in an establish institution for example UM, UKM, USM, UTM and UPM Serdang and not Bintulu does gives you and edge, but when u said you graduated from UMS or even Unimas, people might question your credibility.. betul tak. But nonetheless its not actually which Univerisity you are from but how good you are ... thats what counts. You can be a Harvard graduate but if your mentality is like a 3 year old, then it doesn't make that much difference right.

Entahlah, you fikir jugaklah, later i update if our students bertambah okay.

Meant

Have you ever wonder what's the meaning of you name. I was looking at Andy's blog this morning and i come across a very interesting thing. He was defining his name in a few words. AHAKs. Perluke so i pun dengan tak semena-mena mendifinekan jugalah my name:

A- ANODYNE
(someone/something which comfort a troubled mind or turns attention away from more
important matters )

L - LUBRICIOUS
(this one u find out yourself , this is a very interesting word heheee)

L - LUSTY
(Full of strength, power or health)

A - ALLURING
( to attact or charm by offer of something plesant)

N - NOBLE
(Deserving praise and admiration because of unselfishness and high moral quality)

So, thats it. my name defines me... what would yours be ...?

BEHIND THE NAME
ALLAN
Gender: Masculine
Usage: English, Scottish, Breton
Pronounced: AL-an [key]

The meaning of this name is not known for certain, though it possibly means either "little rock" or "handsome" in Breton. Alternatively, it may derive from the tribal name of the Alans, an Iranian people who migrated into Europe in the 4th and 5th centuries. This was the name of several dukes of Brittany, and was introduced to England by Bretons after the Norman invasion. Famous modern bearers include Alan Shepard, the first American in space and the fifth man to walk on the moon, and Alan Turing, a British mathematician and computer scientist

Find yours here

http://www.behindthename.com/nmc/eng.php

Resilient

Resilient…… do you know what it means. What is all this facination about the word resilient?Well I came across this word yesterday when I was watching The Oprah show, and she was talking about the word resilient over and over again, so after watching Oprah I went back to my office and look through the Dictionary and I found these:-

Resilient – adjective – able to spring back to its former shape or position when pressure
or remove.
- able to return quickly to usual health, or good spirits after going through
difficulty, disease, change etc.

This is a strong-strong word. I guess each and everyone of us should contemplate and reevaluate ourselves in times of trouble, because this is when we fight God and we box with God , saying “WHY ME” ? why not someone else ? Why this happen to me ? and the worst is “ Have you forsaken me oh Lord”.

But have we ever wondered why when god gives us all the blessings, do we ask him “Why me” and Why not somebody else”. I guess not, because when we were blessed with good things in life, we tend to forget God, and when things gone bad , then we started to resent him asking him WHY ? WHY ? AND WHY, without thinking how much good things and blessings he shared with us.

Well, I want to share with you this story of mine when I was just a little boy, I think I was in form 3 at that time and ohhhh was I arrogant… I use to think that I’m smart and no other force in the world could ever break me or failed me. During that time we were suppose to take our SRP exam and gosh I hardly studied because I am so sure that I would pass even if I didn’t study, because my older siblings have done well in their studies and I guess its hereditary ( so as to I believed).

Then SRP comes and I still didn’t study, we’ll actually I did study a little bit but, it just wasn’t enough I guess. I took the exam perfectly and ohhhhhhh how I felt I nailed everything including mathematics the one subject that I hated the most. Then a few months alter, our results comes out on TV saying that the result for that particular year wasn’t promising and that a lot of students didn’t do that well. Gosh a rush of blood comes through my head and a big question pops thought my mind.

HOW DID I DO??
DID I DO WELL??

Another brick comes flat of my face that day when I found out that I flunk because I failed my Maths. Well actually I did well with all my subjects accept for Maths and at that time the only picture I can think of was my mums face , how discourage she’ll be with me and how am I going to face the world. What would my future be? I blame God for everything and resented God. I cried until I could not cry no more….Faith brings me to a letter I receive from my sister whose away for nursing, she told me the very same thing I told my friends in despair “ In a cloudy sky .. There’s always a silver lining” but I couldn’t make sense out of it at that time but kept that word close to my chest everyday.

Soon after that, I woke up from a big long dream and made a promise to myself that totally change myself until now. I promise that I will never failed even a test my entire life and that I would never ever going to make my mother cry for my undiligentness. I remember waking up in the wee morning studying and asking my mum if she could send me for extra maths tuition, which I never did before. I did repeat my form 3 with a great deal of shame at first but soon after that I felt that I conquer something because I top my exams every term and that’s such a great feelings that I finally drew a straight line in my life. But one things for sure I did , was focus.. I focus on all the things I do and most of all I keep my feet close to the ground this time round and I learn to be humble.

Well, finally I did well in my second form 3 exam with flying colors and it made me so proud of myself . All those harsh word my cousins use to throw at me I kept it and it made me stronger to grab greater things in life. Now as I look back at my life I realize the words my sister use to tell me .. the word that could never be erase from my head.. IN A CLOUDY SKY THERE’S A SILVER LINING and now I understand what it meant.

But, there is so much more to accomplish in life and much-much more to do. We just have to believe and focus, and to bounce back to a bad situation and own it and make it better. Looking at where I am right now, no one would ever guess that I was once that kid that failed, that cried … but I did and I’m glad I did …. do you know why.. Because I made it… I kept my promise until today.

OPRAH SHOW..

Very funny Hoprah Whinfrey moments hehee.



What does it meant to be happy.



This is funny the genius girl...

GREATER THINGS ENSTORED..just believe

I had a big brick over my head yesterday when I got a letter from the Management that I cannot continue my studies. According to them it has something to do with the GP (Government Policy ) and I didn’t follow procedure. Then I went to see our Dean and he told me the same thing too. He said that he wants us to continue our studies here and do it in a part time basis, well he should have said it earlier,… but I am not blaming anyone for that, not even him and definitely not myself.

So for now, I have to postpone my studies and see what happens next. No point grumbling and thinking negative but think of things in a more positively way. We just wouldn’t know but maybe God have greater plans for us. I guess looking at Oprah everyday paid off made me change my prospective in life and take negative things more positively. Now I believe that what ever there is action they should be a reaction and I believe that bad things will turn out good but just wait and believe of Gods plan.

But, no doubt that I still in a dilemma but I live through it and would take thing one day at a time, but continue gives the best in my work and possibly be stronger.

TRANSFORMER...

Believe me or not I’m having writers block these last few days. A lot of things happen and Oh yap I want to mention here that I’ve seen TRANSFORMER twice last week. I guess with all the transformation and the animation I hardly can concentrate on the story and after watching twice then I understand the whole story about.

The Animation was superb but the combination between human and the Gobotron doesn’t really match because you can still see the misfits as the image between the human and the Gobots are somewhat different well the human part is a little bit blurry, but nonetheless the movie was good and all this while we have been looking at cartoons and seeing it live makes a great different. What will be the next big thing.

I heard and gather some information that Hollywood are also going to do THE BIONIC WOMEN. OHHHHHhh gila aku macam ni, I remember as a kid I use to love the Bionic Women aka Linsay Wagner as Jamie Summers. She could leap to tall buildings and can ran as fast as a Cheetah. Yang paling best bila dia bengkokkan besi and the sound will be keng keng keng and when she starts running the music will be te tek kembung hehehe. I use to joke with my siblings about that. Fuh I remember dulu masa kecil I got this t shirt of the Six million Dollar Man aka Mr Lee Majors as Mr Steve Austin. What is kids with super heroes and t-shirts anyway. Masa kecil dulu memang banggalah kalau dapat pakai T-Shirt Six Million Dollar Man and the great thing about it is that with only 6 million you got this so good technology that they can rebuild a man into half machine and also got superpowers. AKU TERTIPUUUUUUUUU……….

This is the first half where the soldiers got the second encounters with the Gobots that looks like a Scorpion and can manuveur inside the sand.

This is the Oasis where the Gobots from the Decepticons second attact. The first one was in a military base camp in Qatar. An action packed full triller. MELETUPPPPPPPP....

This are the main characters,both are practically new in showbiz , i think the guy has just made 1 or 2 movies and that lady just had one film to her credit, but both gives a promising performance.

I guess it would be bias for me to give the TRANSFORMER A 4 STAR out of 5 as i am a Tranformer freak, but with the animation and how it brought to life it is outstanding. A big clap to Steven Spillberg and the team. So nasihat aku , go and see the film its worth the money, aku siap tengok 2 kali lagi hehehe.