Ryan welcomes

I'm glad Ryan visit my blog. Ryan is my nephew from my mothers side. Getting married this December and practically everyone in the family is looking forward for the unitement.

Seronok sikit dapat berkumpul again this year. Jumpa all relatives and get together again. Adus kena kuruskan lagi badan aku yang dah tembam ni hehehe.

Today i was a little bit tired, we have an autocad course from 8.30 am until 5 pm. By the time i balik rumah i was too tired mentally becuase the course requires you to think. Now dah bangun balik tak boleh tidur pulak lol.

THINGS THAT DRAGS US DOWN

1. Having a bad job, gosh I know this and I’m sure so of us could relate to this.

Remember waking up in the morning asking ourselves do I want this for my future

and most of all hating and dragging ourselves to work.

2. Being and feeling fat and ugly. I don’t know but when I put on weight , I mean

overweight I always though how ugly I am in front of the mirror. How much my face

fills up the mirror space, how much I unappealing i am in those jeans and shirts. I

remember passing by a mirror in a shopping mall and commenting how hideous

was that man that just walks by without realizing that I was actually looking at

myself.

3. Having a bad boss. This is another relatable experience, having a bad boss that’s

boring, unapproachable, uninspiring and most of all a womanizer that only would

react if you have big boobs and downward opening.

4. Having financial problems. I been there, having to collect every single penny in

your pocket and thinking how lucky I am if I could strike lottery.

5. Feeling old and unwanted. I haven’t been there but when I mum retired from

work , she felt so old ,unworthy and unwanted. How extra sensitive she was with

every single comment comes from anybody’s mouth but now after a few years she

finally subside and the matter doesn’t really occur anymore.

6. Being betrayed. This is either by our own family members or very close friends

because it doesn’t hurt as much from the person we didn’t care.

7. Being alone and single. This is a mid crisis dilemma for all of you single people out

there. You just couldn’t find someone you really like. Sometimes with the high

expectation and the present married situation around us we opted to stay single but

then we are alone it tends to get lonely and that terrifies us.

8. Need to up some of yours here.

HOW MUCH DO WE NEED

Have we ever ask ourselves “ How much do we really need” and morally we would say just enough but is enough … enough.?

I was in a dilemma lately of wanting to buy a new knapsack and a toil bag for my Europe holiday. Yap…. The bag I bought just a year ago from Phuket snap and to me it is still usable but then I thought would it be sheik if I could have a brand new backpack on my trip to London.

Then I went for my bag hunting in all the departmental store in Bintulu, only to find that all their bags are not only hideous but also very expensive. Then finally I went to this new departmental store and find a generally nice looking and cheap travelling bag, but then I have this voice keep on pestering my head asking “ Do you really need this”.

The finally its pay day and I drag a friend to the store and ask for his opinion on the bag and without dismay he told me that its not worthy to buy because not only that the bag is still considered expensive but its also not that practical because the compartment space is so limited.

So…. I after thinking about it , then I realize the voice on my head is practically telling me something but I didn’t want to listen. I was too naïve and focus of my needs and craving that the question of “ Do I really need it” doesn’t really occurs inside my mind.

Sometimes we are too consumed with having a lot of things, without us thinking how much do we really need it. Instead we could save more and make do with the things that we have. How in the third world people are starving of hunger and here we are shopping lavishly without even thinking one minute.

Ok, back to my story.. I finally didn’t buy the travelling bag but instead went back home and stitch my one year old knapsack bag and its as good as brand new. It felt good but most of all it made the voice inside my head stopped and I pride myself for thinking twice before buying things. So from now onwards whenever we want to buy things , think again and ask ourselves “ Do we really need it and How much do we really need it “. Listen to the voice in your head and see how much pride you have for what you stand for, and look on the bright side at least you still got the money you’re about to spent.

47 DAYS TO COME

Another 47 days to go. I counting my days for my big holiday. Oh ya you know what i'm going to do during my holidays. I gonna start my days like the documentary from Astro channel 11, the travelling channel but the problem is i dont have a V.cam and another thing is i don't like looking at my face and listening to my voice on cam. Ha Ha Ha talking about loving yourself kan.

I called Hendrico the while back and he told me that adik dia ada Camera and my sister kat UK pun ada jugak. So kira kalau amik documentary ni, dari setiap anglelah ni hehehe. So far i furnish myself but the problem is i dont have a bag yet tapi ingat ingat nak pakai beg yang lama tu je. The bag i bought in Phuket.

Maybe this weekend I am going to Miri for the Merdeka holiday. Boring pulak di Bintulu ni. Maybe buy myself a bag in Miri sebab kat sana alot of choices and ada bargain sale. As for working is concern, i am okay. Lots of things are ahead of schedule and none urgent matters. Its just that i cant wait.

SERONOKNYEEEEEEEEEEE...

Obscene Jokes ( 18 SX)

1. WHY DO MEN BECOME SMARTER DURING SEX?(because they are plugged into a genius)

2. WHY DON'T WOMEN BLINK DURING SEX?(they don't have enough time)

3. WHY DOES IT TAKE 1 MILLION SPERM TO FERTILIZE ONE EGG?(they don't stop to ask directions)

4. WHY DO MEN SNORE WHEN THEY LIE ON THEIR BACKS?(because their balls fall over their butt-hole and they vapor lock)(You're laughing, aren't you?!?!)

5. WHY WERE MEN GIVEN LARGER BRAINS THAN DOGS?(so they won't hump women's legs at cocktails parties)

6. WHY DID GOD MAKE MEN BEFORE WOMEN?(you need a rough draft before you make a final copy)

7. HOW MANY MEN DOES IT TAKE TO PUT A TOILET SEAT DOWN?(don't know.....it never happened)(C'mon guys, we laugh at your blonde jokes!)And the personal favorite

8. WHY DID GOD PUT MEN ON EARTH?(because a vibrator can't mow the lawn)

5 lesson

I just love these words of wisdom that i print it out and put it infront of my new office door. Hoping that my staf would get some lesson from it.


5 IMPORTANT LESSON FROM A HUMBLE PENCIL

1. IT TELLS US THAT EVERYTHING YOU DO WILL ALWAYS LEAVE A MARK

2.YOU CAN ALWAYS CORRECT THE MISTAKES YOU MAKE

3.WHAT IS IMPORTANT IS INSIDE YOU AND NOT THE OURSIDE OF YOU.
IN LIFE YOU WILL UNDERGO PAINFUL SHARPENINGS WHICH WILL MAKE YOU
BETTER IN WHAT YOU DO

4.TO BE THE BEST YOU CAN BE , YOU MUST ALLOW YOURSELF BE HELD AND GUIDED

5.BY THE PEOPLE THAT REALLY CARE FOR YOU.

or translated

1.Ia mengajar kita bahawa apa yang kita lakukan pada semalam hari ini dan esok akan
meninggalkan kesan.
2.Kita boleh mengubah sebarang kesilapan yang telah kita lakukan.

3.Apa yang penting adalah pada dalam diri kita dan bukan pada luaran.

4. Dalam hidup, kekadang kita akan melalui pengalaman yang menyakitkan yang akan
menjadikan kita lebih baik dan mahu melakukan yang terbaik.

5. Untuk menjadikan diri kita yang terbaik, buka ruang di dalam diri kita untuk dipandu dan
ditegur daripada orang yang lebih arif dan mengambil berat atas diri kita.

People Do Change

Sometimes when you think how people are so rigid with their lives and that no other power in the world that could ever change a person, then suddenly he/she change. Sometimes its either just a typical male chauvinist or that person is just a totally pig ass person.

But deep in my heart and in some cases it does happen that people change. It’s either for the better or for the worst. I had an experience with a friend my senior when I was in secondary school, this guy was in his last year ( 2nd year form 6). Now this person is those people who you would see going to the mosque all day long , having a tasbih ( a muslim rosary) all the time in his hand and looking at him mumbling something while his hands is going trough the beads. All of us was in Awe with him of how committed his was with God.

The after few years gone and there I was working in an Oil Palm and Cocoa plantation in Tawau. I was in my Second year of Cadetship and then I heard this particular name , newly engage by the company. The name sounds familiar, so familiar but I couldn’t get my hands to who this person was. Then I finally met him during this event. Oil Palm Estates normally have this annual event every year to commemorate the year passed and there I saw this one particular person. He was kind of familiar, but the difference was the tanned skin resulted of working to long in the sun. I smiled at him and after talking and introducing myself to him, I confirmed that he was the same guy back during my secondary school.

One thing that struck me was the way he dressed. This is the guy who used to wear the Jubah ( sort of like this long dress the Arabs use to wear) and suddenly at school all day long and suddenly was on T-shirt and jeans. Looking so haggard and unorganized. The worst was he was a chain smoker and talking so loud about the experiences with girls. Gosh what a train rack. I also gathered so information that he does drugs as well.

How does a man full of belief and focus could divert into this man full of anguish and pain. A riddle come to my mind maybe he gone through a phase in life or its just a shelter he put up of being hurt in his lifetime or maybe he mixed with the wrong crowd.

I guess for me, I change as well, but I change for the better ( I hope) he he . Becoming a whole person I was not before. I tried to evolve to this person full of life and gratitude of of the world. Thanking God for every little things God presented to me although something felt selfish but I am internally grateful. The only thing we got to remember is to believe in ourselves and not to lose ground. Always be grounded and learn through our mistakes, and pray that god guided us everyday to serve him well.

The visit ( BOD) Board of Directors

Well the visit was okay and me and Carlina was slightly praised with our presentation ... tapi yang suwei nye , punyelah, the preparation is like 2 weeks and kerja bagai nak rak, then they came for like 1 and a half hour and gone just like that. The 2 long weeks of preparing and hard work was not really noted .. i guess the only thing that this people are concern is that how confident are you in elaborating about your area.

I made a few presentation for these people before and by the end of your long and precise presentation , they just keep quiet and smile,but for me its good at least i am well prepared.

From now onwards i can start concentrating on my holiday to UK and Europe. Baru je tengok sites to the red light district in Amsterdam tadi. Can't waitlah, Mesti seronok tengok benda yang kita tak nampak di Mesia kan.

I remember when i went to Manila in 1991 i was amaze with the culture and the people and when i made my second visit last year April 2006, i was in awe..... betapalah berbeza sangat Phillipines tu dengan malaysia. But after my second visit, i realize that no matter how nice and different Phillipines is, Malaysia is still where my heard is. I remember on my last day in Manila i was so bored and 100% willing to go back to Malaysia.

On my last day in Manila , the people there are celebrating Good Friday and most of the people are heading back to their hometown and Gosh the bus is full. Guys if you are going to Manila please dont go on April because not only that its so Hotttttttttt.. and its nearly the Good Friday holiday so its kinda hard to go around with the public transport.

Sudahlah Clark international airport tu jauh dari Manila, then pulak masa tu, semua orang balik kampung. I remember queing up and still couldn't buy the ticket.. So next time if you are going travelling, really-really plan your visit. Especially if you are travelling alone. But overall i would say that manila is fair. Travelling and the food, and if you ask me to visit manila again, i would but this time i came with my family or friends.

My last holiday that was last year to Phuket Thailand was one of the most memorable holidays i had , because i went along with Fazila. At least things are a lot cheaper but most of all , i went with a friend and it was fun. At least nak ambil gambar pun boleh sebab ada orang snap snap, kalau p sorang adussssssss kena amik gambar sorang sorang kan. Punyalah tak best.

I guess this UK holiday will be fun and exciting because not only that i would spend my holiday with my sister, niece and nephew but i got to spend it with my best freind Andy and my friend Carlina. This would be a new sets of experience altogether. Adus lamanye lagi nak raya.......... tak sabar nak p UK.

LPU visit is on monday

Gosh i hardly have time to blog as i am bz with the LPU's visit, My sister called today and our ticket to spain and france str8 to amsterdam belum beli lagi. Our ticket to rome je yang dah lepas, something to do with her previous transaction, so everything have to be recheck and finalise by monday then she could proceed.

Oh today , we are bz with the new area in my section but it was nice and we are progressing. This Sunday we have a meeting with the LPU from Serdang, well they picked a nice time to come... asal tak datang waktu raya sekali kan. ahaks.

Oklah, if i got time i update again okay

MY PHOBIA

This is a fun subject, I’m sure all of us got our own Phobia. Herewith are some of me and my families phobias and why we got it.

Monkey.

I was born in the year of the Monkey. But do u know that I am SOooo.. afraid of all sorts of Monkey. Ha ha ha I know , monkeys seems adorable especially orangutan and chimpanzee. Well my phobia started when I was in Primary 3 . One day my mum and I visited my friend’s house and there was this one small monkey they kept as a pet at thier backyard. The monkey was so friendly and playful but i never go near it as i was initially a little afraid to it.

Our parents were very good friends and while our parents were talking , we were playing at the back yard and suddenly I felt there was a small hand holding my left hand and and the next thing I know something was biting my hand. It was a little painful but I was shock and things went so fast. Finally they took care of me and my hand was bandage and splash with this Indonesian hot oil. The wound heal off after a few months but the it didnt really heal my wound inside. I guess the monkey could smell my fear from the start thats why it bite me , or maybe its a crazy monkey sial punya monyet.

From that day onwards monkey terrifies me, and couldn’t overcome my fear until today.

Snake

I believe that I am not the only one who was so terrified with snakes. Snakes are so yucky with their oily body and they way it goes and crawl to your body, Ahhhhhhh im dead meat.

My mum was also a snake phobic tunggu jap... emm.... that makes my whole family. I remember when I as small , it was nearly Christmas or New year ke tak ingat dah and normally we would play cards before the new year as it is believed that the sound of money w brings prosperity to the whole family for the year ahead.

Then one night while we were playing cards ( berjudi ni hehe ) a snake drop from the ceiling to our bathroom floor in front of us. All of us was so shock and all of us run without looking back and I remember the snake goes to this one small hole. After that the whole family went to the kampong the very same night and my mother called some villagers ( lupa dah nama dia, but i remember he was a suluk guy ) to check and kill the snake. Finally he came but couldn’t find the snake anymore. We didn’t slept that night and everybody was so terrified. My mum even splash kerosene just to make sure the snake crawl away.

Kitten.

I just couldn’t relate to this,but my mum is so afraid of kittens until as far as I can remember. I remember we use to have this 3 colored cat which believed to bring good luck and one day our cat got pregnant by our neighbors cat ( sial punya kuching pandai dia cari makan kat luar kan) . Then one morning, while we were still sleeping my mum shouted and shouted hysteria …. All of us jump up of fear for maybe it’s a snake and the next thing saw was our mum on the top of the table shouting, and below were some new kittens still shivering and crawling.

My mother was in hysteria and ask us to put all the kittens away in our barn and make sure its away from her. First I thought she was just joking but looking of her fear ahd shiver I realize that my mum really was afraid of kitten. So from that moment onwards, we don’t have kittens at home, well we do have cats but only adult cats. Funny kan. Guess what now all my nephew and nieces dispise cats... do you think its heriditary.

Feathers

I remember my course mate Geeya, now married with 2 children was so afraid anything with feathers. I just couldn’t comprehend but according to her , the sound and the site of feathers made her freak out. Another spooky phobia.

So what are your phobias? I guess somehow we can overcome our phobias, if we really face it but no matter what I rather be phobic my whole life than have to hold a snake.

Guess what, this is the 3rd entry i did today. Banyak pulak things that i want to tell lately.

Last Friday we had a visit from lembaga Lada Malaysia Cawangan Sibu, and we as the Agriculture Office have to attend because in the letter of invitation noted that it was WAJIB. A friend of mine told me that the word Wajid was used to widely in our daily lives , that it doesn't meant that much already.

Normally WAJIB means something that one have to do , and if not done, mean its against God rule ( Berdosa / sin ) for example Having to pray 5 times a day ( althought some peps don't matilah fadzilah lariiiiiiii ) and fast for 30 days in the month of Ramadan. But it terms of attendance one cannot impose WAJIB because according to her, if she cannot or didn't come for that particular meeting does that means that its DOSA (sin)

The meeting was schedule at 8.30 but the atenary started at 9.00 am. what the F... k man. You ask me to hang around the meeting room for additional 30 minutes doing nothing. The letter was subjected to all head of department and also all to the Associate Professor, but funny thing was the heading for the letter is Lawatan sambil Belajar.

When the people from the Jabatan Lada Malaysia comes, and they introduce themself to us, i notice that there was no head of department in thier team. The actual purpose of the team was to break the ice between thier Department and our University but our new Administrative Office gave us an indication that we are going to discuss on our calloboration but when asked pertaining to the pepper subject they answer that they know nothing about it. Boleh ke, we working in the sector for a few years gave a rediculous answer of " we know nothing about this ". Well i pun tidak boleh salahkan diorang sebab initially thier purpose if just to go around the campus for lawatan sambil belajar only but our pegawai Diplomat ini the Campus made it in such a way that they came to us to discuss about calloboration. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz siapa punya salah ni. This must been a failure of communication between them and our administrative officer.

Gosh, i must admit that that was among one of the most unproductive days of my life. I felt that i could have done more things but hasten to do it in order to attent for the meeting. Everyone was a little pist off but eveyone kept quiet.

Oii cik adik oii, next time if you want to call for meeting, think twice before writting the invitation officer.

To all employees.. good laugh

To all Employees:

Effective August 2007

Dress Code

1. It is advised that you come to work dressed according to your salary. If we see you wearing Prada shoes and carrying a Gucci bag, we assume you are doing well financially and therefore do not need a pay raise.

2. If you dress poorly, you need to learn to manage your money better, so that you may buy nicer clothes, and therefore you do not need a pay raise.

3. If you dress just right, you are right where you need to be and therefore you do not need a pay raise.

Sick Days We will no longer accept a doctor's certificate as proof of sickness. If you are able to go to the doctor, you are able to come to work.
Holiday Days Each employee will receive 104 personal days a year - Saturday & Sunday. Compassionate Leave This is no excuse for missing work. There is nothing you can do for dead friends, relatives or co-workers.

Every effort should be made to have non-employees attend to the arrangements. In rare cases where employee involvement is necessary, the funeral should be scheduled in the late afternoon. We will be glad to allow you to work through your lunch hour and subsequently leave 1 hour early.

Toilet Use

1. Entirely too much time is being spent in the toilet. There is now a strict 3-minute time limit in the cubicles.

2. At the end of three minutes, an alarm will sound, the toilet paper roll will retract, the cubicle door will open, and your picture will be taken.

3. After your second offence, your picture will be posted on the company notice board under the "Chronic Offenders" category.

4. Anyone caught smiling in the picture will be sanctioned under the company's mental health policy.

Lunch Break

1. Skinny people get 30 minutes for lunch, as they need to eat more so that they can look healthy.

2. Normal size people get 15 minutes for lunch to get a balanced meal to maintain their average figure.

3. Chubby people get 5 minutes for lunch, because that's all the time needed to drink a Slim-Fast. ( matilah orang gemuks lariiiiiiiiiii...)

Thank you for your loyalty to our company. Remember we are an employer of choice and we are here to provide a positive employment experience. Therefore, all questions, comments, concerns, complaints, frustrations, irritations, aggravations, insinuations, allegations, accusations, contemplations, consternation and input should be directed elsewhere. Management

Holiday route

so this is basically where we are going.



1. Brunei - London ( 14-15 Oct 2007)
2. London - Rome Italy ( 16-18 Oct 2007)
3. Rome - Geneva ( switzerland) ( 18-19 Oct 2007)
4. Geneva - Amsterdam (19-20 October 2007)
5. Amsterdam - London ( By train/bus) -20-21 Oct 2007
6. London - France ( by train / bus) - 21-22 )ct 2007
7. London - Brunei ( 26 Oct 2007)

and the rest of the time until from 23 -25 we will be in London, for walking walking hehehe. boleh ke. kawan kawan.

MY Hectic life

Mesti ramai yang perasan why i lambat update lately. We FYI i was really-really buzy lately with lots of generated work:-

1. The lembaga pengarah Universiti is coming to the campus to see the progress of the campus and everybody is busy preparing for thier visit.

2. My new Ladang kongsi is ready to be planted, and this is one of the places the LPU intend to visit, and we have to show at least some progress from the last visit.

3. I am also buzy trying to juggle everything such as my plan holiday to UK and Europe ...this include our hotel, transportation and others. Well this also include our budget to all and all.

4. The last would be busy trying to think what are my ourfit that i should bring to London hehehe. You know my Niece Diding cakap dia nak beli boots before the trip supaya gambar dia ala ala cantik di sana. Just imagine, with no transportation and all of us have to walk, mesti sakit kaki dia nanti kan. heheh tapi tak pe dia cakap yang penting vougues.

5. Carlina pulak pagi tadi tanye aku, di England tu emas murah ke tak. Apa Carlina ( aka Mami jarum) tidak cukup kah emas di tangan kau tu, thats why we cannot put our money in Jongkong emas because most of the Country's gold is at her hand and body). Carlina have you ever thought about body piercing, pierce kat tutttttttttttttssssssss kau pulak hehehe. Ops sensor sensor.

6. Oh btw, my sister ask us to bring our own umbrella. First tu i also terfikir buat apalah beli umbrella, lepas tu my sister cakap , umbrella kat UK mahal sebab sebiji 3 paun. convert-convert pun dah 21 ringgit, then i pun sms everyone, hoi travellers bawa payung sendiri. Andy jangan kau lupa bawa payung, nanti basah kita berdua kalau kita share payung. You think i'm that small ke or ..............

7. My sister minta we all to bring Nescafe too, sebab nescafe di UK mahal. FYI Carlina tidak minum coffee, dia minta kopi tumbuk dari sabah........ adus penatlah kita menyaring kopi si carlina nanti ni. hehehe Hoi Carlina kau ingat UK tu dongongon ke hehehe minum kopi ala kampung heheheh.

8. My sister sms me this morning this is the email

" i dah surf tambang gi rome guna easyjet. ldn-rome ( 26 pound) Rome-geneva ( 36 pound) Geneva- Amsterdam ( 20 pound) ok ke. Dr Amsterdam naik bus ke london. nak ke ?

if you nak, u and Hendrico aka andy can surf d website: http://www.easyjet.com/ alah saje2 tengok harga flight. kan.

And then Andy cakap kat aku " kita singgah ke Scipol tak" ( like i know where Scipol ??? hello) ada ke jalan dari asmt ke london pakai bus, bukan pakai train ke. Adus perlu ke aku di tanye benda benda ini. FYI andy i dont know you gonna have to ask my sisterlah .

So , kawan-kawan, this is the my hectic and funny life. I hope you can feel how excited we are.