Dear Allan,
Went to Church yesterday, Its been a while since I came back from the Philippines to send my mum to her home town in General Santos, Mindanao. My Aunt is sick .. quiet a fatal disease. 

It was a quick journey for me and my mum.. everything was set up so quickly and by the time I realize it, we were on the way to Manila. It was during the Haj Celebration in between so I manage to not take any more of my little annual leave.

It was pouring rain in Manila that night when we arrive, we stayed the same hotel that we've stayed before ( EUROHOTEL) in Malate, supposingly we went out for dinner that night but decided to just order in coz of the rain. Anyway the food was okay..

The next morning we shoot of to the airport and after 2 hours plus on the plane we arrive safely in GenSan. My cousin was a bit late picking us up, after finally 1 hour of waiting they came.. thank goodness I insisted my mum to not take the taxi sapu otherwise it will be  very expensive.

We have lunch along the way to the hospital. we have bbq chicken and rice. When we arrive at the hospital ( suppose to be a private practice but looks like Tawau General hospital 20 years ago , you can tell by the sign board writing that was written with hand hehehe). When we enter my aunts room, everyone was so surprise to see us... I thought everyone knew we're coming. When my Aunt Neda saw us, I could tell she was happy to see her last remaining siblings. She make an effort to sit down  next to my mum.. tapping her feet and saying to everyone " amun ni bunsu" ( this is our youngest). After all these years of being away and being reunited again I could feel how she misses my mother so much.. and still attachly feel my mother is their youngest in the family. Then flashes of memories came to me how my mum always tell everyone that I was her bunsu.  I was picturing myself in my mums positon someday and I burst in tears. How.. maybe in years to come that will be me.

Then my mum ask me to feel my Aunt with the Chocolate we bought from Malaysia. I know she loves Chocolate as our last visit we bought some too and she kept it to her self hehehe, that's cute. My tears flows down like rain that day, trying to keep my compost and trying to feed her is just to much for me. Then of the 3rd serving she cough I guess the sugar is too much. Then gently my mum ask me to go outside to retain myself from crying. 

Do you know that sadden me the most is .. having so little time to know my Aunt.. Yes I meet her for the first time in February this year , she was strong and I remember asking her to visit us in Malaysia one day ... and she said yes if I got married hehehe yeaaaaaa like that's going to happen.  Another thing that sadden me so much is that my sister and my cousins never got to know her .. if she passed.  To know our roots and to meet one of the remaining member of my Mums family. I do hope that they would just take a time and visit before its too late.. I know everyone is busy with their life but tryyy..

That night I spend the whole night at the hospital to watch over my Aunt. I had a few sleep but I know she was in pain. The next morning I flew from GENSAN early morning at reach manila in the afternoon and flew to Kuala Lumpur in the evening. I reach KL at nearly 10 pm and finally reach home by midnight.

Then I was down with fever, cough and sore throat for a week.. so I skip sunday mass for 2 weeks, but the lord is always by my side. I remember waching Oprah online yesterday .. a quote by her GOD APPRECIATE BEING APPRECIATED, that y I always thank GOD everyday for even a little things he rendered to me.
LORD JESUS thank you for giving me a good family, a good life , good health everyday .. AMEN

A TRIBUTE TO MY BABY MYVI QTE71

I was thinking of posting this tribute to my Myvi a while back, my QTE 71 but I was so busy with work and sending my mum back to Phil sekejap that I forgot doing it.

Yes, my Myvi was my baby ,.. bought her in Bintulu in 2007 ( I think). The first time my agent handed me my Myvi car keys, it was one of the happiest days of my life. Upgraded from my BGD5429 kancil to my QTE71 myvi was a big accomplishment for me. I am not such a car guy but upgrading myself from a small car to a slightly big car makes me proud of myself ( tapping my back and said GOOD JOB U'VE UPGRADED URSELF FINALLY ).

When I bought my Beetle, I told my agent that I still want to use my old number if its possible.. I love my existing number QTE71 as it has so many significant meaning to me , and my agent told me that he can do it with a little bit of payment ( RM 650), according to him , my old car will have its own new number and my Beetle with come with my old number. All that I know my old myvi will be ___9433.

I share some great moment with my Myvi,
1. You have always been there for me... I remember the time with I got robbed and I drove u to the hospital .. bleeding with all cuts and bruises .. ( one of the reason I got you upholster to hide my blood on the car seat.
2. One good thing.. my Myvi never breaks down.. not even once.. well my kancil previously pun sama jugak.. I guess im such a good driver and my car seems to like me very much.

So to my old car,.. my beloved Myvi.. I owe you my life dear and I thank you for the 8 and half year we were together. My hope and dream is that you will find a good owner that will treat you the same way as I did. Thanks thanks and many thanks.. love you baby.

Introducing my "Freveluz bug".

Today its almost been 3 weeks since I got my new car.. Yes people I bought myself a Volkswagen Beetle, the one car that I always wanted to own. Some people wanted to buy a Mercedes Benz or an Audi, well I am a Beetle guy. This brings me way back to when I was a small boy in BAL plantation almost 40 years ago. I clearly remember watching the Bal Estate Plantation managers riding their beetle. We use to call it kereta Labi labi..a kind of tortoise. I always love the design and the moment I sat eyes on it, I feel deeply in love the THE BEETLE. When the new beetle came in 1998 the first time I sat eyes on her, I nearly kiss it. loving it so much, and every time I saw somebody driving a beetle, my neck will always elongated .. to see who's the driver, coz I know I could never own one because it would be too expensive for me ( at that time a beetle cost nearly 200k). 2012 the beetle hatchback was introduce..( I was the prelaunch in OPRAH) I was not very keen on the design at first.. still love the new beetle design but after a while it grew on me. He he I remember putting a flyers on my fridge and my office wall to remind me, my wish will someday come true. So on the 1st or October I got my love .. my long time sweetheart my beetle hatchback bug. Ahhhh my wish come true.. the funny thing is nobody knew it hehehe was a big surprise to my mum. Now every time I drive my beetle, it always put a big smile on my face... once it was only a dream became a reality to me.. thank you Jesus.. for answering my wish. So here u are,, I'm introducing my Beetle FREVELUZ.. ITS AN ACRONAME FOR FRED EVELYN AND LUZ.. MY SIBLINGS.. FOR WITHOUT THEM ALL OF THIS COULD NEVER COME.

MY TEARS FELL DOWN WHEN I SAW THIS

I was looking at this, and it shed a tears in my eyes... I hope it wouldn't offend anyone especially its a religion thing.. but it really touch my heart.

A RUDE AWAKENING FROM THE GYM

Last night i was at the Gym and i heard a disturbing conversation between one of them is the Gymstructor and the other one is a Gym member. Gym instructor: My life is centered upon my body.. all my salary 3 k plus .. goes all to my body buying protein, eating high protein food and supplements. Gym Member: Wow, is that so much to maintain your physic, what happens when you didnt take those supplements anymore. Gym Structor: I ever stop working-out and it made me fat coz all the protein in my body turn automatically into fat I mean hello, lets be realistic., all your salary goes all to your body.. i mean there is consciousness about health but don't you think he is overdoing it. I guess that what's happens when you didn't invest on the brain hehehe ( jahat aku kan).

Damn im sick ..

Oh god, its been 3 days with running nose. cough and a little bit of fever. My throat feels icthy and my cough is getting worst. I went to UPM clinic this morning and was given a days leave.. but i guess its not getting better coz i still got my cough. oh God i hate it when im sick..

FINALLY I GOT GUTS TO DO IT.

Last week i fill up my application for my study leave.. i need to finish my studies asap. Actually my studies started in 2009 and i finish all of my subjects that i've taken leaving my thesis.. which is very hard to do when ur working ( AND I MUST ADMIT too i hate doing it and keep on procastinating from it). So this year i finally have the courage to fill up my application form and discuss with my Dean and my boss. I hope everything went well and i can start consentration on my studies again, which i abondoned so long. i have another appointment with my eye specialist on my eyes.. coz last time i check my right eye is still did not recover and it still blurry a lil bit. I hope the doctor got an explaination for this and if he suggested for me to redo my eys,.. im all for it but im not paying anything anymore, coz i paid so much from the last surgery. I pray to the lord that my application will be approved and that my eyes will be solve asap. Dear Lord guide me.