A world of puzzle.

I'm off to Malacca today for a short course on Communication, although i feel that my communication skill are good as compared to some of my ....... but i still need to enhance to improve myself more.

Yesterday i have a nice chat with a long lost freind, a few years ago something happen that i totally disregard him in my life, but i guess tru time patience and forgiveness comes over me and i accepted his appology but things are still not as good as before, there is still bruises and pain that rarely still unmended but we its a start.

As we chatting, he told me how hard it is for him , ever since he got transfered to Johore as his job required. He said he cannot stand being out of Kay El. That was the same remard Sahari said when he got transfered to Perak.

To me work is work and u cannot choose where u should be ( eleh ) hehe, but saying that one cannot stand being in a small town , Gosh thats wrong. As if we are really from KL. To me some people just like to make that remarks to show how KL they are and how they are use to the KL ways. Ideally who am i to disregard their opion but look who's talking some people have been in KL all their life but still remain the same. They are still the same old person that you knew before. I remember one of a girl i once knew in BAL ask me out for a jug of beer. Oh god Daling i don't drink beer only coffee. She used to be a sweet girl from a small kampung but why is it when someone stays in kl, Boose, cigarette and sex is one of thier normal norm in their daily lives. I just feel that its wrong.

so come back to my freind in Johore, i told him that you could be surprise that people from the small town are better than in big cities. People in big cities are soooooooooo superficial and i hope and pray that i would'nt turn to be like them one day. Its just hard to see the spirit flew from their bodies and the only thing you see is just a black ash covering their whole body.

Nostalgic.. ya.

Weird ya.. yes its SHEILA MAJID. A tribute to her and her song that really touches my life for many years. I was introduce to sheila majid in the late 80's i think it was on the 85 during my from 5 ( yea u'oll i dah tua hehe). The first single was Pengemis muda and uhhhhhhh i just hated the song, voice and singer. I use to call her suara tercekik coz she sound so screking with a high pitch.

Then in 1987 i went to Kl for the first time, that was during my sisters Graduation in UKM and i heard SINARAN for the very first time at the shoping mall, i think it was The Mall and after coming back from Kl, my addiction of Sheila started.

So basically i was all over her song, her voice and yes her looks. Its a full pachage ya. Throught the years her songs have touches me so deeply that once i hear it , it brings much memories to me.

Here are some of her album and songs that really struck a course to my life.








INTRO TO LAGENDA.

Ini tersilap letak actually , i was the album before lagenda is out.


DIMENSI BARU.

The first album. Dimensi baru, u know i only bought this album after i bought sinaran, i borrowed it from my best friend jeffrey from Taiko Plantation. Use to love the song Gerimis Semalam and Dia.


SINARAN

Now this is the album that introduces me to sheila. My fav song was Sinaran ( use to sing it while riding my bike) and Di dalam emosi ( oh god, that touches me so deeply) now when i hear this song it remind me of Taiko Plantation and my poverty good old days hehehe.

WARNA

Now this album remind me when we first move in to our new home in Shangrilla park, that was in 1988 or 1999 i cant really remember. use to love the song Memori and Jelingan manja.


LAGENDA

This album was out when i was working in BAL. I love this album to death hehe. gila kan. It was suppose to be a tribute to the legandary P ramlee which i never really minat lah, but the album bring a craze to my world. The album and songs still bring chills to my heart when ever i played it. I remember i bough this one particular album 3 times cos cepat rosak, tau taulah dulu kan kaset and later i bought the original CD.


GEMILANG

I bought this album when i entered UPM. I remember i was in Prelim and i use to played so loud that everyone in the dorm shouted HOIIIIIIII SHEILA CUKUPLAH NYANYI PENAT KAMI DENGAR HEHE.


RATU

I remember i went for the launching of this album with andy. Kan andy. Gosh i was a pathetic fan but actually the album was a flop. I don't realy like the album that much.


KUMOHON

This album was out in 1998 i think when i was taking my degree in Bioindustry. Honest this is one of the best work she did. I even went to her concert with Kend and Diding at stadium negara. Gosh i love the song Ku mohon.


INIKAH NAMANYA CINTA.

I didn't really buy this album as i got it from Salya, her father was a deejay but honestly this was the last album i had of her, and soon my interst dissapear until now, but listening to her music again its nice to reminise the good old days. Thanks for the wonderful gift of memories.

ITs FILTHY RED..

I was looking at my pic, how it bores me , the colour the fond and everything about it. Then something pops up our of my mind and here it is.

ITS REDDDDDDD AND I LOVE IT.

I hope that this year my life will be as vibrant as the red itself and hopefully i can achieve what i had hoped for soon

AKALA MO the translation

If you listen to my song choice you would notice that its a new Filipino Song. My sister in Law Bell introduce me this song last Christmas. I instantly loved it and recently being an addicted i search at Bear share and found out that she is damn famous in the Phillipines.

The song is quiet soft ( for those who are at the boderline age you might like this song)

Akala Mo... (Don't you think)

Akala mo hindi ko nakita( Do you think i never realise)
Maligaya ka 'pag ako ay masaya ( that you're happy when i'm in deep sorrow)
Akala mo hindi ko naisip ( Do you ever think i've never thought)
Na kasama ako sa iyong panaginip ( am i with you in ur dreams)

Bawat sabihin ko (so listen to what i say)
Alam ko nakikinig ka ( I know that ur listening to this)
Akala mo siguro hindi ko nakita ( Sometimes you might think that i never see)

Akala mo hindi ko pansin ( Do you think i never see)
Akala mo hindi ko alam ( Do you think i never knew)
Mahal mo nga ako kahit hindi mo man sabihin ( You deeply love me but you never said it)
Akala mo hindi ko napansin( Don't you think i never felt)

Akala mo hindi ko naririnig ( Dont you think i never listen)
Tibok ng puso mo't kaba ng dibdib ( to every beat of my heart , will you hear it)
Akala Mo hindi ko nadama ( Do you think i never felt)
Na kasama ako sa lungkot at saya ( that i felt you sorrow)

Kapag kailangan kita ( when i needed you the most)
Dumarating ka ( you're always there with me)
Akala mo siguro hindi ko nakita ( Maybe you never think that i never saw it)

Akala mo hindi ko pansin
Akala mo hindi ko alam
Mahal mo nga ako kahit hindi mo man sabihin
Akala mo hindi ko napansin

Akala mo hindi ko pansin
Akala mo hindi ko alam
Mahal mo nga ako kahit hindi mo man sabihin
Akala mo hindi ko napansin

Akala mo gano'n lang yon ( Do you think thats the way it is )
Alam ko 'yon kahit noon ( i know thats the way it is)
Akala mo hindi ko napansin ( do u think i never see)

Thanks to my mum for helping me up with the translation. Aku rasa-rasa macam tu lah maksudnye sikit sikitlah. For those that found some of the translation does'nt agree please comment.

MUMS JEANS

I was and never a fashion critic as u can see from my previous entry i never even touch on fashion coz i know i am the last person who should be talking about fashion but today its different coz ... tengoklah sendiri.

Well i guess this pants come in the mid 80's where people ( who in the hell created it) started wearing baggy pants and soon it transform in jeans and comes the birth of Mum's jeans. I'm sure u've seen it most of the time today and hey maybe you're one of them.

The thing with mum's jeans is that it makes u look like a pear. big on top and small on the bottom. I remember sheila Majid use to wear them too in the Mid 80's and so does many of my friends and familys including me. The more baggy it is the more stylist u look and the style grew but in the beggining of the millinium the baggy pants starts dissapearing, entah jadi lapik meja kot sebab kain rentang lebar kan.




But then again it comes back again early this year when Siti Nurhalija start wearing Mum's jeans again. I bet u Dato' k mau tak mau je pandang siti masa tu. hehe. Oh siti oh siti kenapalah siapa yang campak ko seluar tu.hehe. pelik betul. Those days siti use to remind me on winnie the pu uh and how do u want ur tea,.. and then she answer in a cup but now its SITI IN MUM'S JEANS. APOOOOOOOOO

The moody me.

Yesterday Someone (D) called me up, sounds upset and at the verge of tears. Well oviously she was upset by things at home. After talking for a while for what had happen i soon realise the tears seems to boil at home.

Yelah, i guess its only human that sometimes we are unaware of our wrong doings and we cannot read peoples mind, and sometimes the other person might have his own issues that he cannot resolve , making it hard for him to face his current situation.

I do face the same stage at this time.. being unsure of what i want and what i felt makes it hard for me to express how i felt inside me. Sometimes being quiet doesn't mean that we are mad, its just meant that i would like to be left alone. Let me digest my feelings alone and soon i will be okay. No Drama please.

So when she called me up yesterday, it triggers me, how i need to be alone myself. How i myself do not understand my feelings and more to express my thoughts. So the only advise i gave her was to give it a rest. let him be for a while and he'll come back to his senses soon. I know its hard to don't understand people .. especially when you are a person that expresses yourself openly, but remember not everybodys the same. Some people need time to digest and some people just need time to rest.

A POEM.

i was browsing tru some things in the internet and found this poem along with 100 more poem they posted. Being from the science stream i just couldn't understand poem either its a English or Malay but this poem struck a cord inside me.



I FACE THE WORLD


I face the world with a smile, no one knows whats hid inside
they see happiness, They cant see all the tears I cried
When I'm alone I hurt, I hide so no one knows the real me
I try to fit in, for a while I do, But I slip out and run before they see
They want to play judge and jury and convict me, everyone has a say
I'm innocent yet, you judge me guilty, , why do they get a say they dont know me anyway


How can they judge me if what I've done is right or wrong?
In the end I just gave up, I knew my body heart and soul did not have long
where is the strength I know I once had? How can I find out when
I'm walking under dark clouds raining sad
They say life will go on, and I must learn to cope with this loss and live again
But how can they even know my pain and guilt without being where I have been.

Autum Skiles

Slow motion

Punyelah aku malas lately nak update my blog. I notice some of my freinds pun dah slow down, its either life is hectic or life is a bore.

Being in Serdang, things are going and running but what i miss most of all is being with my friends as what i use to do in Bintulu. Meeting Mat, Carlina , Ain , Sudirman and the rest of the gang. Meeting up for breakfast chatting until 2 hours, then meeting the rest of my tutor friends Sharul, Kak long , Jep. Those are the good old days ya.

If u ask me if im rested here.. i don't know coz i guess there is so much more to do. so much thing to see and most of all so much place to visit. so i guess all that i can do is just to sit back enjoy the ride and see what tommorow brings.

Oh btw American idol is here again. Kak Long if ur reading this .. i miss talking to u about idol every week. hehehe.

Somethings gotta change.

Gosh when is it going to rain in KL. Its been dry ever since new year, Although the weather is just fair.. panas lite lite je tapi it has been dry. I heard from my Family and Andy back in Sarawak, the Borneo Island has been wet and funny coz Kuching Flooded.. Now thats new, guess the world is upside down.

You know what i think.. i think all of this happens becuase of excessive felling of trees and rainforest. Ini salah Menteri-menterilah ni ( Eh.. boleh ke aku mengutuk menteri kat sini wahlah i ni orang gomen) alah.. komen lite lite bolehlah kan.

If u come to Sarawak and you take the so called highway from Bintulu to Kuching, you will notice that Sarawak hardly have any more rainforest. All whats left is some secondary forest that hardly surviving, and the rest are bare lands. Its kinda sad to see (lagi-lagilah aku ni jenis yang tak pandai tidur during the journey). So when Andy told me Kuching is flooded a few weeks ago.. it surprises me but not in a big waylah.. coz i saw it coming.

I hope it will rain in a few more days.. my students soon will be doing their planting and the rain helps especially its going to be a long holiday soon. Oh yea Gong Xi Fa Chai to all my chinese friends ( berapa keratlah sangat kawan cina i ni), but anyway for those celebrating a very Happy Chinese New Year and for those yang tak sambut tahun baru, selamat bercuti.. cuti panjang oooooooo isnin selasa.

Christmas is Giving.

Christmas is all about giving ...


Bell doing the karoke.. its the pinoy game, when u got the present u have to sing the song...



Ahmad with the macarena..

Merry Christmas

an acclaimation to be a family member by afique.. boleh caya ka. ni.



Baby sean with Lola mok and lolo mil


the new member in the family .. baby sean.. pronounce as shaun.


The backyard where the Boboy a pitlet wholely grilled was chopped up. Wong ang sarap Its a lechon in filipino.Nong Nato is the chopping chef.. actually he makes good lechon too..



Ian trying to set himself free from Tito Jamilnye hhee.











ian with ryan's baby. i love this pic.



our poco poco class by cikgu diding.. macam af pulak.. one two tree four hehehe. tapi yang paling lucu bila my sister cant even memorize the steps.. aka kaki bangku lah tu.. our poco poco class right after our christmas dinner.


Diding teaches us how to do the poco poco. It was hard at first but soon, i was doing the poco poco, it was requested by my sista so that she can show he expertise once they have thier poco poco in the jabatan.. but its like she aint showing anything hehehe almaklumlah.. badan keras.

House decorations.

Actually i felt hesitant to decorate my house last year, with my tight work schedule and organizing our boling tournament, but i manage to do it. Well i finally bought a small 4 inches tree and decorated with all my recycled ornaments.

Next year if i am still here heheh ops amen.. i will put up a real tree from ikea. This year tak beli sebab baget lari. hehe. I guess i am still not at ease working in kl..





just a simple decoration.. which all was recycled.